Heifer International
gift giving at it's finest.
what better way to show your love than giving a gift of life.
water buffalo
llama
flock of chicks
flock of ducks
heifer
many animals to choose from.
you can give either all or a share of a gift.
i know i feel better giving a gift of this nature.
Tuesday
Saturday
idiots
dude buys a beer.
shake my head time.
he pops the top walking out of the store then jumps into his car and takes off down the road.
what the idiot didn't realize was, there was a policeman parked around the corner of the store writing up a report from a stop he had just done - not 15 mins ago.
i watched him help push a huge orange pumpkin on wheels off to the side of the main road.
no clue. didn't ask.
what i am totally clueless about is why this dude, after getting off work and waiting that long to get to the store to buy this beer, couldn't just "WAIT" to drink that damn beer.
than we have a couple dudes that buy beer before work. at 5am ????
whatever.
shake my head time.
he pops the top walking out of the store then jumps into his car and takes off down the road.
what the idiot didn't realize was, there was a policeman parked around the corner of the store writing up a report from a stop he had just done - not 15 mins ago.
i watched him help push a huge orange pumpkin on wheels off to the side of the main road.
no clue. didn't ask.
what i am totally clueless about is why this dude, after getting off work and waiting that long to get to the store to buy this beer, couldn't just "WAIT" to drink that damn beer.
than we have a couple dudes that buy beer before work. at 5am ????
whatever.
Wednesday
this could be it
since I stopped working at the hospital a while back, I have been taking odd jobs here and there. they are usually part time jobs that don't require much thinking.
landed a new job this last week and it's a full time one. still not much in the way of thinking required to do it either. ouch.
maybe this one will stick.
the folding boxes and answering phones job was fun, but, sigh, I don't put up with games and one guy was definitely into games.
this guy is married and has an adopted 8 yr old child at home.
he asked not only for my phone number for a date, but also most of the young, cute teeny-boppers that he came into contact with through the store.
at one time he even locked himself into the office with a young, new hire and the other employees were puzzled but didn't knock on the door to ask this creep - wtf!
my guys asked me why I didn't pursue this and file charges.
hell, this has obviously gone on for quite some time.
I could care less about that store. if the bosses want to make an issue of it than they need to, not wait for some bleeding heart to make waves for them.
besides, to many of the people working there are into cocaine and I sure as hell don't want to work around people like that.
I quit it.
clocked out and left.
haven't been back.
so, anyway.
this new job seems o.k.
even though there are a lot of people, because I run a cash register I don't have to deal with them for very long and don't have a chance to get all nervous and anxiety ridden.
was funny - one guy kept looking at me. hard. like he was saying "look at me back just like I am looking at you." something was up for sure.
of course, it made me nervous and if you asked me I couldn't even begin to tell you what he looked like because I couldn't look at him.
so much for that.
easy job so far and pay is not half bad. hope I am able to maintain and stick around for awhile. would like to save some money and go to europe one last time.
love having goals :)
landed a new job this last week and it's a full time one. still not much in the way of thinking required to do it either. ouch.
maybe this one will stick.
the folding boxes and answering phones job was fun, but, sigh, I don't put up with games and one guy was definitely into games.
this guy is married and has an adopted 8 yr old child at home.
he asked not only for my phone number for a date, but also most of the young, cute teeny-boppers that he came into contact with through the store.
at one time he even locked himself into the office with a young, new hire and the other employees were puzzled but didn't knock on the door to ask this creep - wtf!
my guys asked me why I didn't pursue this and file charges.
hell, this has obviously gone on for quite some time.
I could care less about that store. if the bosses want to make an issue of it than they need to, not wait for some bleeding heart to make waves for them.
besides, to many of the people working there are into cocaine and I sure as hell don't want to work around people like that.
I quit it.
clocked out and left.
haven't been back.
so, anyway.
this new job seems o.k.
even though there are a lot of people, because I run a cash register I don't have to deal with them for very long and don't have a chance to get all nervous and anxiety ridden.
was funny - one guy kept looking at me. hard. like he was saying "look at me back just like I am looking at you." something was up for sure.
of course, it made me nervous and if you asked me I couldn't even begin to tell you what he looked like because I couldn't look at him.
so much for that.
easy job so far and pay is not half bad. hope I am able to maintain and stick around for awhile. would like to save some money and go to europe one last time.
love having goals :)
Sunday
drapes
I absolutely one hundred percent - hate buying clothes. I dislike shopping of most any kind - but the clothing one? Really is not for me.
If and I do mean if, I am able to get myself into a clothing store, I do try to make an effort and spend up to 20 minutes looking, max.
Not trying on mind you - just looking.
After about 20 minutes I can feel my body yank me out of the store. This yank is a bit rougher if there are more than just a couple of people in the store.
Than I start feeling crowded.
Heh, you say, a couple of people??
Yeah, I tend to shop at either consignment or Salvation Army/Goodwill stores for clothing and around here if I drive by and see only a couple of cars out front and I need to get something other than the usual clothes I wear that belong to my kids - I'll stop.
This doesn't happen to often as I really, really hate shopping.
No biggie though, even if the guys clothes are a bit big, it's nothing a belt and flip up of the cuff won't take care of.
I am blessed in that I have quite a few clothes given to me and if it fits and is half way decent looking, I'll wear it. That word "fits" translates into "loose and big", not binding.
I guess wearing the guys clothes for so long has spoiled me in the comfort arena.
Now - shoes are easy. If I need to buy a pair of shoes, I can tolerate slightly more time looking and trying on, because I know what shoes I like and I buy the same brand every single time.
Born, Birkenstock and Eco make darn good shoes.
I still have my first pair of Birkenstock sandals bought during the 70's and if I carried them in for a new sole job, they would be just dandy to wear. I leave them in their box though and have only had to buy one new pair of Birk's since.
So - once again, because I hate shopping, I'm not doing any Xmas shopping for this year. Just like last year and the year before that and...
Really though, if I wasn't on such a strict budget wanting to obtain my goal of being debt free by the end of next year, I would go nuts and get the claw foot tub and Victorian chain pull toilet I've been craving forever and a day.
But I won't.
This year for Christmas Eve, I want to do an Olde' English dinner with a Roast Beef w/au jus, Yorkshire Pudding and my Mom's Cheesecake Recipe.
Everything else is up for grabs.
Just as long as I make those three dishes I will consider dinner complete. And just as long as we are all together and reasonably happy and healthy, I will consider Christmas complete also.
If and I do mean if, I am able to get myself into a clothing store, I do try to make an effort and spend up to 20 minutes looking, max.
Not trying on mind you - just looking.
After about 20 minutes I can feel my body yank me out of the store. This yank is a bit rougher if there are more than just a couple of people in the store.
Than I start feeling crowded.
Heh, you say, a couple of people??
Yeah, I tend to shop at either consignment or Salvation Army/Goodwill stores for clothing and around here if I drive by and see only a couple of cars out front and I need to get something other than the usual clothes I wear that belong to my kids - I'll stop.
This doesn't happen to often as I really, really hate shopping.
No biggie though, even if the guys clothes are a bit big, it's nothing a belt and flip up of the cuff won't take care of.
I am blessed in that I have quite a few clothes given to me and if it fits and is half way decent looking, I'll wear it. That word "fits" translates into "loose and big", not binding.
I guess wearing the guys clothes for so long has spoiled me in the comfort arena.
Now - shoes are easy. If I need to buy a pair of shoes, I can tolerate slightly more time looking and trying on, because I know what shoes I like and I buy the same brand every single time.
Born, Birkenstock and Eco make darn good shoes.
I still have my first pair of Birkenstock sandals bought during the 70's and if I carried them in for a new sole job, they would be just dandy to wear. I leave them in their box though and have only had to buy one new pair of Birk's since.
So - once again, because I hate shopping, I'm not doing any Xmas shopping for this year. Just like last year and the year before that and...
Really though, if I wasn't on such a strict budget wanting to obtain my goal of being debt free by the end of next year, I would go nuts and get the claw foot tub and Victorian chain pull toilet I've been craving forever and a day.
But I won't.
This year for Christmas Eve, I want to do an Olde' English dinner with a Roast Beef w/au jus, Yorkshire Pudding and my Mom's Cheesecake Recipe.
Everything else is up for grabs.
Just as long as I make those three dishes I will consider dinner complete. And just as long as we are all together and reasonably happy and healthy, I will consider Christmas complete also.
Saturday
just thinking
Great is truth, but still greater, from a practical point of view, is silence about truth.
The unimaginable horrors of the Thirty Years War actually taught men a lesson, and for more than a hundred years the politicians and generals of Europe consciously resisted the temptation to use their military resources to the limits of destructiveness or (in the majority of conflicts) to go on fighting until the enemy was totally annihilated. They were aggressors, of course, greedy for profit and glory; but they were also conservatives, determined at all costs to keep their world intact, as a going concern.
Assuming, then, that we are capable of learning as much from Hiroshima as our forefathers learned from Magdeburg, we may look forward to a period, not indeed of peace, but of limited and only partially ruinous warfare. During that period it may be assumed that nuclear energy will be harnessed to industrial uses. The result, pretty obviously, will be a series of economic and social changes unprecedented in rapidity and completeness. All the existing patterns of human life will be disrupted and new patterns will have to be improvised to conform with the nonhuman fact of atomic power. Procrustes in modern dress, the nuclear scientist will prepare the bed on which mankind must lie; and if mankind doesn't fit- well, that will be just too bad for mankind. There will have to be some stretching and a bit of amputation--the same sort of stretching and amputations as have been going on ever since applied science really got into its stride, only this time they will be a good deal more drastic than in the past. These far from painless operations will be directed by highly centralized totalitarian governments. Inevitably so; for the immediate future is likely to resemble the immediate past, and in the immediate past rapid technological changes, taking place in a mass-producing economy and among a population predominantly propertyless, have always tended to produce economic and social confusion. To deal with confusion, power has been centralized and government control increased. It is probable that all the world's governments will be more or less completely totalitarian even before the harnessing of atomic energy; that they will be totalitarian during and after the harnessing seems almost certain. Only a large-scale popular movement toward decentralization and self-help can arrest the present tendency toward statism. At present there is no sign that such a movement will take place.
You pays your money and you takes your choice.
Aldous Huxley
Above quoted from Foreword
"A Brave New World"
interesting how we need so many things now a days. how we are still a product consuming, throw it away driven "mass" of sheep.
how we bury ourselves in "stuff" distracting us from the truly important issues of the care of our hopefully long term existence as a living organism on this planet.
i am not anti-techno, anti-progress in the least. i think Huxley used his extreme imagery to convey his thoughts and fears for our future as a race if we were to allow government and science to dictate how we utilize resources.
my fears are for the ones i meet day in and day out that are so wrapped up in "buying what the "Madison Ave" folks keep pumping out in front of them and the "hiding behind "drugs, alcohol, sex, non-stop rush rush" yet on the other hand rant about the state of our being. how much gas costs yet driving gas hogging vehicles, on and on. they are so clueless.
i have no clue where i am going with this but i do have enough of a clue that sometimes, just sometimes i read something written and am struck by the thought ... well. indeed.
Thursday
house breathes
i swear, my house breathes kids.
you can almost see my house inhale and in they come, flowing through the living room, bumping the crates and guitars into the door jambs in their hurry to get set up and banging.
inhale out, they flow out and i have silence for maybe - 15 minutes.
another breath in and another set of kids present themselves, ready to go at it.
don't get me wrong, i am not complaining at all.
this has been going on since my kids were 1 and 2 years old.
i had pots and wooden spoons set aside just for them to bang away on and if neighbor kids showed up, out came more pots and wooden spoons.. but outside.
we had set up the yard as a kiddy wonderland, just so neighbor kids would come to "our" house to play. that way i knew just where my kids were at all times.
as they got older and the gear got vastly more expensive they moved into the barn. now it is the back of the house. go figure.
i also know how empty my life would be with out this constant breathing.
thank you life, for the little pleasures you give me.
you can almost see my house inhale and in they come, flowing through the living room, bumping the crates and guitars into the door jambs in their hurry to get set up and banging.
inhale out, they flow out and i have silence for maybe - 15 minutes.
another breath in and another set of kids present themselves, ready to go at it.
don't get me wrong, i am not complaining at all.
this has been going on since my kids were 1 and 2 years old.
i had pots and wooden spoons set aside just for them to bang away on and if neighbor kids showed up, out came more pots and wooden spoons.. but outside.
we had set up the yard as a kiddy wonderland, just so neighbor kids would come to "our" house to play. that way i knew just where my kids were at all times.
as they got older and the gear got vastly more expensive they moved into the barn. now it is the back of the house. go figure.
i also know how empty my life would be with out this constant breathing.
thank you life, for the little pleasures you give me.
done deal
court day and everyone showed up.
they offered him a plea bargin and he will be in jail for a year.
very mixed emotions about that.
he is also having to deal with a probation violation, but at least for the next year, he won't be able to hurt anyone else.
glad that is over with as i am sure the guys are.
they offered him a plea bargin and he will be in jail for a year.
very mixed emotions about that.
he is also having to deal with a probation violation, but at least for the next year, he won't be able to hurt anyone else.
glad that is over with as i am sure the guys are.
Tuesday
Monday
a song for martin
during the 80's, about a year after graduating, i signed up with Kensington Home Health Care in calif.
my second assignment with this company was caring for an elderly woman with alzheimer's.
i was utterly heart-broken for her husband and the family.
some days i would arrive to find him in tears, retreating to his chair, muttering. "why, lord. why".
i over heard him begging her to remember who he was.
i had to walk out of the room.
he had spent his married life working to provide this woman he loved so deeply with the means to enjoy their retirement years.
that dream was destroyed by one word.
i came to have a deep respect for him and his determination to keep his wife in her home surrounded by the life they had built together.
i do not know what the outcome for this family was as i was reassigned to an aphasic patient nearer to home after only a month, but i doubt it had a happy ending.
this past weekend i saw the movie "A Song for Martin".
i finally had to run grab the tissue box.
A Song For Martin
my second assignment with this company was caring for an elderly woman with alzheimer's.
i was utterly heart-broken for her husband and the family.
some days i would arrive to find him in tears, retreating to his chair, muttering. "why, lord. why".
i over heard him begging her to remember who he was.
i had to walk out of the room.
he had spent his married life working to provide this woman he loved so deeply with the means to enjoy their retirement years.
that dream was destroyed by one word.
i came to have a deep respect for him and his determination to keep his wife in her home surrounded by the life they had built together.
i do not know what the outcome for this family was as i was reassigned to an aphasic patient nearer to home after only a month, but i doubt it had a happy ending.
this past weekend i saw the movie "A Song for Martin".
i finally had to run grab the tissue box.
A Song For Martin
Sunday
it's fixed!
if your a winamp itv junkie - as i am, than you are already aware of the recent shutdown of the nsv feeds due to certain porn streams loading executables. (someone paddle their behinds please)
well, it's back! it's fixed! and it's about time.
i was into the withdrawals bit!
pcmovieman.com, webranger.net and saltwaterchimp.com kept my tears at bay, but it is still nice to have it all in one easy little program.
well, it's back! it's fixed! and it's about time.
i was into the withdrawals bit!
pcmovieman.com, webranger.net and saltwaterchimp.com kept my tears at bay, but it is still nice to have it all in one easy little program.
Saturday
nuturing of spirit
driving into the center we spotted 2 does and 3 fawns grazing on the hill along the "Stations of the Cross" trail.
as we walked towards the lotus pond and Grotto, dedicated to Mary, Our Lady of Mount Carmel, they would stop grazing - turning as one to stare at us for a few moments.
again, as if by a hidden signal, their heads dipped down as one, intent once more on their grazing, not bothered by our presence in the least.
the carekeeper drove up to unlock the chapel and hall for us all the while relating to us the incredible story of one Priest Chavara from Kerala, India that inspired the order of Catholic Priests named the "Carmelites of Mary Immaculate".
we walked into the chapel and as i looked around at the stained glass windows, Jesus on the cross above the altar, the hardwood floors and ceiling, the restored "Stations of the Cross" plagues, all lovingly done by hand .. i was quickly overwhelmed.
dang eyes - smarted, dang nose got stuffed up.
if you ever find yourself near Liberty,TN. treat yourself to the beauty of this gift of love nestled in the TN hills.
Larry the carekeeper, who in actuality is so much more to the wonder that is the Carmel Center of Spirituality, is an endless source of information and how this "piece of heaven on earth" came to be.
Carmel Center of Spirituality
Located 55 miles southeast of Nashville in rural Liberty, TN, is owned and operated by the Carmelites of Mary Immaculate, an order of Catholic priests established in 1831 in Kerala, India.
Drop Larry or Bonnie Bean a line if you plan to visit at
- Carmel Center of Spirituality
P.O. Box 117
Liberty, TN 37095
P.S. as soon as i either - [1] get a new scanner to replace the one my kid stepped on or [2] get batteries and a cable for the digital camera a friend loaned me - i will post some pictures from the brochure i picked up.
as we walked towards the lotus pond and Grotto, dedicated to Mary, Our Lady of Mount Carmel, they would stop grazing - turning as one to stare at us for a few moments.
again, as if by a hidden signal, their heads dipped down as one, intent once more on their grazing, not bothered by our presence in the least.
the carekeeper drove up to unlock the chapel and hall for us all the while relating to us the incredible story of one Priest Chavara from Kerala, India that inspired the order of Catholic Priests named the "Carmelites of Mary Immaculate".
we walked into the chapel and as i looked around at the stained glass windows, Jesus on the cross above the altar, the hardwood floors and ceiling, the restored "Stations of the Cross" plagues, all lovingly done by hand .. i was quickly overwhelmed.
dang eyes - smarted, dang nose got stuffed up.
if you ever find yourself near Liberty,TN. treat yourself to the beauty of this gift of love nestled in the TN hills.
Larry the carekeeper, who in actuality is so much more to the wonder that is the Carmel Center of Spirituality, is an endless source of information and how this "piece of heaven on earth" came to be.
Carmel Center of Spirituality
Located 55 miles southeast of Nashville in rural Liberty, TN, is owned and operated by the Carmelites of Mary Immaculate, an order of Catholic priests established in 1831 in Kerala, India.
Drop Larry or Bonnie Bean a line if you plan to visit at
- Carmel Center of Spirituality
P.O. Box 117
Liberty, TN 37095
P.S. as soon as i either - [1] get a new scanner to replace the one my kid stepped on or [2] get batteries and a cable for the digital camera a friend loaned me - i will post some pictures from the brochure i picked up.
Friday
dances on tippy toes
my brother is home safe from his tour of duty in Afghanistan.
i won't pretend i know what he was doing over there (supporting the NATO contingent) as he is not allowed to discuss it with anyone.
i can only guess, coming from a military family and our father having done a tour of duty in Korea and a few in Vietnam, but i won't.
all i know and care about? is that he is home, he is well and he is with his family.
they are touring Europe and i can imagine him shaking off the last 6 months of being away from them.
welcome home.
and
take some pictures bro!
i won't pretend i know what he was doing over there (supporting the NATO contingent) as he is not allowed to discuss it with anyone.
i can only guess, coming from a military family and our father having done a tour of duty in Korea and a few in Vietnam, but i won't.
all i know and care about? is that he is home, he is well and he is with his family.
they are touring Europe and i can imagine him shaking off the last 6 months of being away from them.
welcome home.
and
take some pictures bro!
Wednesday
he is out on bail
lt j from the town jail house called yesterday afternoon. said she had two subpoenas for the guys to show up in court this morning at 9am concerning the crack head.
the guys show up only to find out the crack head got out on bail as of 4am this morning.
new court date on the 8th of dec.
not looking good.
i am wondering how the crack head got the money to post bail on a 50k bond.
curious.
the guys show up only to find out the crack head got out on bail as of 4am this morning.
new court date on the 8th of dec.
not looking good.
i am wondering how the crack head got the money to post bail on a 50k bond.
curious.
Monday
wasting time
neat places to get lost.
andy foulds : interactive play.
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andy foulds : interactive play.
typoGenerator made.
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above found via junestar.blogspot.com thanks!
Tuesday
bah hum bug
last week i received 2 credit card offers in the mail.
this week, so far, and it's only tuesday?, i have received 5.
i envision my mailbox overflowing with these offers to undo all the productive dave ramsey work i have been doing these last 8 yrs.
i see a cross held up over this pile of envelopes ~ that are full of empty promises of instant money that they want to loan me in order to throw it at "corporate america" ~ as i put a match to it.
i see.. more junk credit card mail and "many, many more" matches in my immediate future.
this week, so far, and it's only tuesday?, i have received 5.
i envision my mailbox overflowing with these offers to undo all the productive dave ramsey work i have been doing these last 8 yrs.
i see a cross held up over this pile of envelopes ~ that are full of empty promises of instant money that they want to loan me in order to throw it at "corporate america" ~ as i put a match to it.
i see.. more junk credit card mail and "many, many more" matches in my immediate future.
Monday
where are the stairs
"I am interested only in the basement of the human being."
Sigmund Freud
i have attempted to express in writing my go-rounds with compassion or lack thereof.
i stumble and whine while "Mystic Cowboy: Facing demons" flows.
dang
Sunday
shake, rattle and roll
view recent world earthquake activity.
i've felt the shockwaves from a few earthquakes.
in 1994 i felt lucky to be in our home in the valley when the los angeles one hit.
looks like calif is getting more than it's fair share lately.
still sure you don't want to move out here micheal?
i've felt the shockwaves from a few earthquakes.
in 1994 i felt lucky to be in our home in the valley when the los angeles one hit.
looks like calif is getting more than it's fair share lately.
still sure you don't want to move out here micheal?
Saturday
guilty pleasures
if you were raised catholic in the 50's and 60's, as i was, than you know what i am talking about when i say, "no, i can't do that, he is watching me."
this was so ingrained in me, i used to think he could see me with my flashlight under the covers reading, (this was considered a sin way back in the old days) when i was supposed to be trying to get to sleep so i could get up in the morning for school.
i would always end up feeling guilty for just "thinking" about this "evil" thing i wanted to do.
as my boys grew up and became sexually active i knew i couldn't just stand back and keep my mouth shut about certain things.
so, i started on them young. well, actually, not to young, more like around the time i figured they were "thinking" about doing the "evil thang".
over the years it became increasingly difficult to come up with new and fresh ways to present the condom/baby idea in a humorous manner so they wouldn't stand there with their eyes glazed over.
to this day i look for ways to present my ideas of sexual responsibility. this seems to be working so far. no grandkids yet and no std's. go mom yeah!
but anyway... on to the tale.
i have a friend in colorado who sent me a link a couple of months ago to a site and a little clip he had posted done to the tune of the old slinky ditty. (that's all i'll say on that. you have to go hunt the clip down yourself. enjoy, my belly hurt from laughing so hard the first time i explored his site.) i've been reading his site ever since.
well, the other day he posted a link saying .. here ya go ladies. enjoy. to my surprise it was most decidedly not enjoyable. so i shot him an e-mail off.
his gift to us - ladies. the world according to trip (nsfw)
now - i'll take one of these and oh, one of those and....
~ guilty pleasures ~
thank you tripmine. you so rule!
this was so ingrained in me, i used to think he could see me with my flashlight under the covers reading, (this was considered a sin way back in the old days) when i was supposed to be trying to get to sleep so i could get up in the morning for school.
i would always end up feeling guilty for just "thinking" about this "evil" thing i wanted to do.
as my boys grew up and became sexually active i knew i couldn't just stand back and keep my mouth shut about certain things.
so, i started on them young. well, actually, not to young, more like around the time i figured they were "thinking" about doing the "evil thang".
over the years it became increasingly difficult to come up with new and fresh ways to present the condom/baby idea in a humorous manner so they wouldn't stand there with their eyes glazed over.
to this day i look for ways to present my ideas of sexual responsibility. this seems to be working so far. no grandkids yet and no std's. go mom yeah!
but anyway... on to the tale.
i have a friend in colorado who sent me a link a couple of months ago to a site and a little clip he had posted done to the tune of the old slinky ditty. (that's all i'll say on that. you have to go hunt the clip down yourself. enjoy, my belly hurt from laughing so hard the first time i explored his site.) i've been reading his site ever since.
well, the other day he posted a link saying .. here ya go ladies. enjoy. to my surprise it was most decidedly not enjoyable. so i shot him an e-mail off.
his gift to us - ladies. the world according to trip (nsfw)
now - i'll take one of these and oh, one of those and....
~ guilty pleasures ~
thank you tripmine. you so rule!
Friday
on facing up to adversity
it's a troublesome world,
all the people who're in it
are troubled with troubles
almost every minute.
just tell yourself, duckie,
you're really quite lucky!
some people are much more...
oh, ever so much more...
oh, muchly much-much more
unlucky than you!
- did i ever tell you how lucky you are?
i learned there are troubles
of more than one kind.
some come from ahead
and some come from behind.
but i've bought a big bat.
i'm all ready, you see.
now my troubles are going
to have troubles with me!
- i had trouble in getting to solla sollew
theodor seuss geisel (1904-1991)
Thursday
thank you
a couple of days after my oldest son was stabbed in the face and back by a punk crack head at one of our local convenience stores here in our "normally" quiet, sleepy town, i brought my anger to my blog.
since then we have received many well wishes from those of you that have read about it.
we are deeply touched by your kind words.
i cried reading some of the emails and i am grateful that i have my son.
he is well, healing nicely and back to his routine.
i pray that you and yours are as blessed as i feel right now.
thank you
since then we have received many well wishes from those of you that have read about it.
we are deeply touched by your kind words.
i cried reading some of the emails and i am grateful that i have my son.
he is well, healing nicely and back to his routine.
i pray that you and yours are as blessed as i feel right now.
thank you
Wednesday
howard zinn says
The Missing Voices of Our World
got it?
hey - can we start this revolution - soon? Please?
"The Preamble to the United States Constitution, which declares that 'we the people' wrote this document, is a great deception. The Constitution was written in 1787 by fifty-five rich white men -- slave owners, bondholders, merchants -- who established a strong central government that would serve their class interests."
got it?
hey - can we start this revolution - soon? Please?
memories from the past
fort campbell ky - remember grandma chasing mom around because she allowed pat to swim in hole-y underwear? /wink
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germany - my memories of germany are wrapped around the incredible sensation of my first taste of german chocolate ice cream, cuckoo clocks, throwing up after eating black bread, (still dislike rye to this day) gummy bears and leiderhousen - wonderful place to be a child.
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Tuesday
no - you can not have my children
i was kindly pointed to the article below over at snopes - thank you btw.
draft fear
letting my breath out now.
updated-11.18.04
Government Looking at Military Draft Lists
most of my young life was spent growing up in a military family.
my father was in vietnam (two tours of duty if my memory serves me right).
my youngest brother is in afghanistan right now and has had duty in various other third world countries over these last few years.
growing up an army brat was an enlightening experience for me, we were introduced to different cultures and mind-sets that most people i know don't have the privilege of experiencing. but that is another topic.
i am very concerned with this scrutinizing of the draft records. two of my sons are of age and registered but i am so totally opposed to this iraq fiasco.
oh, what to do - what to do.
*do not get me wrong.
i support our troops one hundred percent.
what i do not agree with is this senseless killing of innocents.
now - of course, my perfect world would include the ability for our military to take out the scumbags yet allow the innocent mothers and children caught up in this to be able to function in a semi-normal manner.
so much for a perfect world.
i am a mother what the hell else you expect? i am selfish.
i don't want to be one of the poor mothers that have already lost their precious sons and daughters to this war.
our government is out of control. period.
draft fear
"Since a reimposition of conscription would require Congressional approval, which has not yet been given, it is unlikely that a draft (even if approved by Congress) would be underway as early as Spring 2005"
letting my breath out now.
updated-11.18.04
Government Looking at Military Draft Lists
"The Selective Service System (SSS) and the U.S. Department of Education now are gearing up to compare their computer records, to make sure all men between the ages of 18 and 25 who are required to register for a military draft have done so."
most of my young life was spent growing up in a military family.
my father was in vietnam (two tours of duty if my memory serves me right).
my youngest brother is in afghanistan right now and has had duty in various other third world countries over these last few years.
growing up an army brat was an enlightening experience for me, we were introduced to different cultures and mind-sets that most people i know don't have the privilege of experiencing. but that is another topic.
i am very concerned with this scrutinizing of the draft records. two of my sons are of age and registered but i am so totally opposed to this iraq fiasco.
oh, what to do - what to do.
*do not get me wrong.
i support our troops one hundred percent.
what i do not agree with is this senseless killing of innocents.
now - of course, my perfect world would include the ability for our military to take out the scumbags yet allow the innocent mothers and children caught up in this to be able to function in a semi-normal manner.
so much for a perfect world.
i am a mother what the hell else you expect? i am selfish.
i don't want to be one of the poor mothers that have already lost their precious sons and daughters to this war.
our government is out of control. period.
Monday
crack heads need to fall off the face of the planet
this has been so upsetting to me i am almost beside myself.
my oldest son and his dad went to the golden gallon in triune to get dessert as the store in our little town was closed for the night.
as my son's dad was coming out of the store a man standing outside started verbally harassing him.
he responded with "hey dude, no reason to act that way. i don't even know you."
the man then pushed him.
my son saw this and walked over to see what was up, asking his dad what the problem was and if he was o.k. he then asked this weirdo why he pushed his dad.
the man responded by throwing a beer bottle at my son then picked up the broken bottle and stabbed my son in the face.
my son grabbed his shirt as he fell taking this ass wipe down to the ground with him.
as my son got up and started walking towards his dad with blood streaming down his face, this ass wipe pulled a knife and stabbed him in the back.
customers in the store got his license plate number as this piece of crap took off.
the police showed up and after my son was seen in ER and sewn up, told us this man, by the name of james leon oglesby, was a crack head and wanted for murdering his uncle and stabbing his mothers b.f. in the back.
the last couple of days have been spent talking to the deputy that is assigned to the case. he informed us he has a personnel vendetta against this punk.
lucky for us, this is not going to be swept under the rug.
dear lord, what in the hell is wrong with people.
my son will have a couple of new scars but is still in shock that this got out of hand so quickly.
i don't usually wish ill on others .. .. but this ass wipe and ALL crack heads need to fall off the face of the earth and die a fiery death in hell.
*my son was extremely lucky. 4 stitches on his nose and the knife wound on his back is very shallow. Thank you Lord.
my oldest son and his dad went to the golden gallon in triune to get dessert as the store in our little town was closed for the night.
as my son's dad was coming out of the store a man standing outside started verbally harassing him.
he responded with "hey dude, no reason to act that way. i don't even know you."
the man then pushed him.
my son saw this and walked over to see what was up, asking his dad what the problem was and if he was o.k. he then asked this weirdo why he pushed his dad.
the man responded by throwing a beer bottle at my son then picked up the broken bottle and stabbed my son in the face.
my son grabbed his shirt as he fell taking this ass wipe down to the ground with him.
as my son got up and started walking towards his dad with blood streaming down his face, this ass wipe pulled a knife and stabbed him in the back.
customers in the store got his license plate number as this piece of crap took off.
the police showed up and after my son was seen in ER and sewn up, told us this man, by the name of james leon oglesby, was a crack head and wanted for murdering his uncle and stabbing his mothers b.f. in the back.
the last couple of days have been spent talking to the deputy that is assigned to the case. he informed us he has a personnel vendetta against this punk.
lucky for us, this is not going to be swept under the rug.
dear lord, what in the hell is wrong with people.
my son will have a couple of new scars but is still in shock that this got out of hand so quickly.
i don't usually wish ill on others .. .. but this ass wipe and ALL crack heads need to fall off the face of the earth and die a fiery death in hell.
*my son was extremely lucky. 4 stitches on his nose and the knife wound on his back is very shallow. Thank you Lord.
Sunday
another bush flub up
Joke Waller-Hunter of the Bonn-based Climate Change Secretariat, which services the protocol, said only four industrialized countries have not yet ratified the Kyoto Protocol: Australia, Liechtenstein, Monaco and the United States.reuters.com
updated 11/21/04 - bush is afraid of the auto industry. bet me. just bet me
The US, responsible for about a quarter of the world's gas emissions, has refused to ratify the Kyoto Protocol. The agreement, negotiated in 1997, requires industrial nations to reduce emissions of greenhouse gases below 1990 levels.bbc news
President Bush argues the plan is too costly and unfairly excludes developing nations.
EXCUSE ME? what a wieney!
kyoto protocol laid out at wikipedia
nrdc clearly disagrees with bush.
obviously nothing is perfect but we sure as hell need to start somewhere.
Friday
Thursday
abolish cars
ever make the mistake of mentioning that bonus or pay raise, or the fact that you have been invited to Switzerland by your "honey bunny", to a passenger while in your "set of wheels"?
i did and this is what my "little blue bomb" did for me as a way of saying
thanks info!!
1. alternator = $0 (traded "old white bomb" that's been sitting in the driveway for the last 3 yrs)
2. two front tires and front brakes = $235.83 - went in for just tires. of course.
3. throttle angle sensor = $797.24 - sometimes you make it really difficult to like you honda - i mean come on !
4. water pump, belts, oil change/tune-up = $634.59 - this guy tried to charge me for a power steering belt. i had no clue i had power steering! ha, i don't
/nod
moral of this tale? never ever talk about $$'s while in your "set of wheels" - it will bite you.
i did and this is what my "little blue bomb" did for me as a way of saying
thanks info!!
1. alternator = $0 (traded "old white bomb" that's been sitting in the driveway for the last 3 yrs)
2. two front tires and front brakes = $235.83 - went in for just tires. of course.
3. throttle angle sensor = $797.24 - sometimes you make it really difficult to like you honda - i mean come on !
4. water pump, belts, oil change/tune-up = $634.59 - this guy tried to charge me for a power steering belt. i had no clue i had power steering! ha, i don't
/nod
moral of this tale? never ever talk about $$'s while in your "set of wheels" - it will bite you.
Tuesday
candy stores
sites like these
majorgeeks.com
download.com
tucows.com
grc.com
drive me bonkers.
it's like walking into the candy store - i want to play with every single thing i find there. this addiction started back when i bought my first commadore 64 and you had to know dos in order to load a program.
usually the only thing i "accomplish" at these sites is a fresh clean install of the original o.s.
all in good fun.
majorgeeks.com
download.com
tucows.com
grc.com
drive me bonkers.
it's like walking into the candy store - i want to play with every single thing i find there. this addiction started back when i bought my first commadore 64 and you had to know dos in order to load a program.
usually the only thing i "accomplish" at these sites is a fresh clean install of the original o.s.
all in good fun.
Monday
odd rules
during my one month stay in TX last year, the tags on my little "blue bomb" expired. no biggie right? nope.
except! in TX - you need a TX state driver's license (and a myriad of other things - of course) in order to receive new little "blue bomb" tags allowing you to drive around all legal like.
[never mind that the TX state office did not clue me into the little known fact that i could get temporary tags until i got home to TN. right? right.]
anyway on to the tale.
i wait until i need new tags here in TN to go get my driver's license switched back to TN (it hadn't even expired when i had to get a TX one) - which is my legal state of residence.
(by the way, i have lived in and had a TN drivers license for almost 10 years, thank you, grrr)
so, after stopping and asking "what all do i need in order to get my drivers license?"
i gather up all these things and head on back to the drivers license place to get a spanking "brand new" one.
tis not to be.
my original - yes, from the week i was born - birth certificate was not good enough - shrug. ok, fine.
so i go to the passport office and send off all my stuff (including my not good enough birth certificate) to get a new passport.
well - my passport is here
tomorrow? i go back to the drivers license place and will give my spanking "brand new" passport over to this state office to get - yes! you understand now! - a new drivers license.
oh, wait - did i miss something here?
go figure. just another one of those riddles that perplex me i guess.
except! in TX - you need a TX state driver's license (and a myriad of other things - of course) in order to receive new little "blue bomb" tags allowing you to drive around all legal like.
[never mind that the TX state office did not clue me into the little known fact that i could get temporary tags until i got home to TN. right? right.]
anyway on to the tale.
i wait until i need new tags here in TN to go get my driver's license switched back to TN (it hadn't even expired when i had to get a TX one) - which is my legal state of residence.
(by the way, i have lived in and had a TN drivers license for almost 10 years, thank you, grrr)
so, after stopping and asking "what all do i need in order to get my drivers license?"
i gather up all these things and head on back to the drivers license place to get a spanking "brand new" one.
tis not to be.
my original - yes, from the week i was born - birth certificate was not good enough - shrug. ok, fine.
so i go to the passport office and send off all my stuff (including my not good enough birth certificate) to get a new passport.
well - my passport is here
tomorrow? i go back to the drivers license place and will give my spanking "brand new" passport over to this state office to get - yes! you understand now! - a new drivers license.
oh, wait - did i miss something here?
go figure. just another one of those riddles that perplex me i guess.
Saturday
i am not going to cry
dang it !
roland just buried jake.
eyes are stinging.
had to put the book down.
in case you do not know who roland and jake are. have a visit - Stephen King
roland just buried jake.
eyes are stinging.
had to put the book down.
in case you do not know who roland and jake are. have a visit - Stephen King
run dick run. see dick run. run jane run. see jane run.
MarryAnAmerican : No good American will be left behind!
or you could try here
Migration Expert - Australia
or here
Switzerland Residency
but keep in mind - of course
me?
think i will just stick around and watch the fallout
or you could try here
Migration Expert - Australia
or here
Switzerland Residency
but keep in mind - of course
"Remember that Nixon was reelected with a bigger margin than Bush, but faced impeachment within a year."
Ten Reasons Not to Move to Canada
me?
think i will just stick around and watch the fallout
Thursday
found words
my brothers and i, watching ships as we wait for the one that will take us to okinawa
without your past experiences you've learned nothing to prepare you for what lies ahead.
don't look back with regret. life can be very painful, but it only opens the door to the real you.
it makes you stronger and wiser as you go.
the desires you have previously chosen have brought you precisely were you are. right now.
just as surely as the desires you focus on today bring about the substance of your tomorrow.
though you won't get it perfect, do it anyway.
though you don't think you have the time, do it anyway.
though it will challenge you and make you uncomfortable, do it anyway.
only you know what must be done. you know what actions will bring the results you desire.
you know what is right and what is wrong.
you can spend a lifetime making excuses, thinking of reasons why not, but where would that get you?
touch your own sense of excellence and do the right thing.
do it anyways in spite of the bring me downs.
take yourself to the next level.
*i have since found out that this was written by my number two son.
dang jord - i can't express in words to you how much i admire your insight.
Wednesday
bushwhacked
4 more years of this.
i smell another vietnam in our history. we just love to meddle.
Vietnam Timeline v.s. Iraq Timeline
Cost of War
oh, wait, i don't do politics.
away - i go.
i smell another vietnam in our history. we just love to meddle.
Vietnam Timeline v.s. Iraq Timeline
The damage to U.S. prestige in the world for its illegal invasion of Iraq is already done. The danger now is that in his desperation to avoid a humiliating U.S. defeat, the repudiation of his entire presidency, and a generation-long disdain for U.S. military power, Bush will resort to apocalyptic barbarism. This is exactly what Nixon did trying to salvage "peace with honor"� in Vietnam. It is this temptation that only the American public can force Bush to resist.
Robert Freeman - Is Iraq another Vietnam? Actually, it may become worse.
So where are the similarities between Iraq and Vietnam? They reside in Washington.
Joe Galloway - Iraq No Vietnam, But There Are Parallels
Cost of War
oh, wait, i don't do politics.
away - i go.
Saturday
my boys girls
some interesting stuff going on around here maynard.
a couple of girls have been here the last 2 days - hanging out.
tis odd to wake up and see a woman come strolling out of my son's room.
[usually on my way to the head after i wake up, i trip over all these guy bods sleeping on the living room floor recovering from their night of music and gaming].
anyway. my oldest boy has a new "interest", nice lady. she has been chasing after him for around a year and a half and well, she finally snagged him. they haven't been off each other for hours now. they practically sit on top of each other, holding hands, making faces at each other. coolest thing is she is 11 years older than him.
wonder who is teaching whom what. not that this is any of my business - it just felt "odd" to have the baby/condom talk with a woman her age.
we all know the number one son is not interested in any type of "long term thang" and i was concerned this might turn into an issue since she had been building up in her head all this stuff about him for the last year. he assured me he has it under control, is being up front and honest with her. ok babe. your boat.
haven't had the baby/condom talk yet with my number two son's new love interest. did hear tell she asked a good friend of hers' if it was possible to get pregnant by swallowing.
ok - for sure the talk needs to be real soon. but ! um. did your momma not tell you about this stuff honey ?
my number two son is a sensitive guy and hasn't had a g-f in ages. so, i need to be concerned about this one in a sensitive manner - not my usual - "you got a condom? you do know that babies suck up your life in a positive manner 'IF' you are ready for it? no - of course you don't since you don't have any kids yet. so - let's talk about this. if you are not on birth control now? .. hey! let's go".
yes - of course, i do love my boys - deeply.
a couple of girls have been here the last 2 days - hanging out.
tis odd to wake up and see a woman come strolling out of my son's room.
[usually on my way to the head after i wake up, i trip over all these guy bods sleeping on the living room floor recovering from their night of music and gaming].
anyway. my oldest boy has a new "interest", nice lady. she has been chasing after him for around a year and a half and well, she finally snagged him. they haven't been off each other for hours now. they practically sit on top of each other, holding hands, making faces at each other. coolest thing is she is 11 years older than him.
wonder who is teaching whom what. not that this is any of my business - it just felt "odd" to have the baby/condom talk with a woman her age.
we all know the number one son is not interested in any type of "long term thang" and i was concerned this might turn into an issue since she had been building up in her head all this stuff about him for the last year. he assured me he has it under control, is being up front and honest with her. ok babe. your boat.
haven't had the baby/condom talk yet with my number two son's new love interest. did hear tell she asked a good friend of hers' if it was possible to get pregnant by swallowing.
ok - for sure the talk needs to be real soon. but ! um. did your momma not tell you about this stuff honey ?
my number two son is a sensitive guy and hasn't had a g-f in ages. so, i need to be concerned about this one in a sensitive manner - not my usual - "you got a condom? you do know that babies suck up your life in a positive manner 'IF' you are ready for it? no - of course you don't since you don't have any kids yet. so - let's talk about this. if you are not on birth control now? .. hey! let's go".
yes - of course, i do love my boys - deeply.
Friday
altruism
cross cultural solutions ~ 1 - 12 week volunteer program.
matching donors ~ if you have worked with or around anyone needing a transplant - than you understand the dire need.
peace corps ~ have wanted to sign up for a stint with the peace corps since i was 16 yrs old. have had the application sitting here for a couple of years now ... getting closer in my life stage where this could happen.
matching donors ~ if you have worked with or around anyone needing a transplant - than you understand the dire need.
peace corps ~ have wanted to sign up for a stint with the peace corps since i was 16 yrs old. have had the application sitting here for a couple of years now ... getting closer in my life stage where this could happen.
Saturday
lawn decorations
kerry/edwards sign in the yard. not sure which one of the guys in the house put it up.
just want to cross out all of them
! Pat Paulsen for Pres ! - really wish he were here for this one.
! Pat Paulsen for Pres ! - really wish he were here for this one.
Thursday
music
Rock the Vote - This Land Is Your Land - listen up.
Scissor Sisters - some funk. they call it indie now [it's still funk to me]
tiny music
Scientific American: Scientists Turn DNA Tubes into Nanowires - spiffy
Scissor Sisters - some funk. they call it indie now [it's still funk to me]
tiny music
Scientific American: Scientists Turn DNA Tubes into Nanowires - spiffy
Saturday
cruising the net
luv it.
i like the videos at - ifilm
"underwear goes inside your pants!" album: lazyboy.
- video info
more videos from - viralx
alright, time to get yourself - flabbergasted
don't have time to cruise all of this one yet - ebaumsworld
tn rock on - rock 103
old flicks here - retrostation tv - or - pcmovieman
i like the videos at - ifilm
"underwear goes inside your pants!" album: lazyboy.
- video info
more videos from - viralx
alright, time to get yourself - flabbergasted
don't have time to cruise all of this one yet - ebaumsworld
tn rock on - rock 103
old flicks here - retrostation tv - or - pcmovieman
Wednesday
music
varied as usual
my newest obsession ! damien rice
~ volcano
don't hold yourself like that you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth your back that's all i need
don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back is that all you need?
don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
what i give to you is just what i'm going through
this is nothing new no no just another phase of finding
what i really need is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease she's still too you to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she's still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me
damien rice ~ very - very nice.
guys saw damien at - bonnaroo this year
type o ~ oh yeah baby ~ peters voice causes instant melt down on my part. just watch me flow all over the floor.
the cure ~ older band but still one of my favs
another "older" band still working me over ~ janes addiction
and of course - always have - npr or - wmts 88.3 in the car
my newest obsession ! damien rice
~ volcano
don't hold yourself like that you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth your back that's all i need
don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back is that all you need?
don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i'll ask for the sea
what i give to you is just what i'm going through
this is nothing new no no just another phase of finding
what i really need is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease she's still too you to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she's still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me
damien rice ~ very - very nice.
guys saw damien at - bonnaroo this year
type o ~ oh yeah baby ~ peters voice causes instant melt down on my part. just watch me flow all over the floor.
the cure ~ older band but still one of my favs
another "older" band still working me over ~ janes addiction
and of course - always have - npr or - wmts 88.3 in the car
some kids - i swear
david (middle brother) drives the tractor over today to help jon and m "work on the roof"?
m laughed and chased him off, told him to come back with just his hands - thanks.
where could he of possibly thought a tractor would be helpful in roof work. /boggle.
we are still training david to get un-stupid. he has these parent types that have ignored their kids for so long their kids crave any family community type atmosphere. unfortunately, we (make that /i) can only handle one of em over here at a time and then we/i want to beat them if they out-stay their welcome.
russ (big brother) had stopped hanging out over a year ago, so that is great.
he has a tendency towards the "i am vastly superior to you - yo, i'm here to tell yah" and that got old after a couple years.
timmy (little brother) is alright and way more tolerable than david (sometimes) but they only come one at a time. thank goodness.
m laughed and chased him off, told him to come back with just his hands - thanks.
where could he of possibly thought a tractor would be helpful in roof work. /boggle.
we are still training david to get un-stupid. he has these parent types that have ignored their kids for so long their kids crave any family community type atmosphere. unfortunately, we (make that /i) can only handle one of em over here at a time and then we/i want to beat them if they out-stay their welcome.
russ (big brother) had stopped hanging out over a year ago, so that is great.
he has a tendency towards the "i am vastly superior to you - yo, i'm here to tell yah" and that got old after a couple years.
timmy (little brother) is alright and way more tolerable than david (sometimes) but they only come one at a time. thank goodness.
Sunday
issues
here i go again. another part time job. no biggie.
it is just part time and answering phones? folding boxes? - i mean - come on. cake.
wouldn't even mention it 'cept for this one kid.
this 19, soon to be 20, year old kid i work with.
appears to be rather confused about his gender.
way over-dramatic in his re-telling (the entire store) of his escapades. annoying.
constantly sings rap songs in this high pitched .. voice?
says girl with such a drawl that it grates the last nerve on my toe.
i counted girl coming out of his mouth no less than 7!! times in one sentence.
says he is a girl. who am i to disagree? not i.
my words to this child?
i could care less.
i don't want to hear about your little romps sucking dick.
i don't want to hear your .. oh .. i could go on. i'm sure you get it though.
thank goodness they don't allow him to dress in his "drag" at work.
it's harsh enough to see the wig and fake nails and the pink purse.
oh - and the lip gloss .. my goodness. this is all contrasted rather nicely with the dirt crammed up behind his ears, the halitosis that knocks-s-s-s .. and the ..
never mind.
so .. it will come to a head with me and him/her? it?.
(sorry, no, really i am)
i am going to tell him what i see.
how demeaning, how disrespectful his behavior is to me as a woman.
in his pretense of being sexually challenged, he invades my sense of what is proper behavior in the work place.
(no less - in public - i mean - come on! but that is another issue really)
so why should i have to be subjected to this clown?
his antics do not amuse me.
dude - please ! call it what it is. you are an attention whore .. end of story.
all i see is gutter-trash.
it is just part time and answering phones? folding boxes? - i mean - come on. cake.
wouldn't even mention it 'cept for this one kid.
this 19, soon to be 20, year old kid i work with.
appears to be rather confused about his gender.
way over-dramatic in his re-telling (the entire store) of his escapades. annoying.
constantly sings rap songs in this high pitched .. voice?
says girl with such a drawl that it grates the last nerve on my toe.
i counted girl coming out of his mouth no less than 7!! times in one sentence.
says he is a girl. who am i to disagree? not i.
my words to this child?
i could care less.
i don't want to hear about your little romps sucking dick.
i don't want to hear your .. oh .. i could go on. i'm sure you get it though.
thank goodness they don't allow him to dress in his "drag" at work.
it's harsh enough to see the wig and fake nails and the pink purse.
oh - and the lip gloss .. my goodness. this is all contrasted rather nicely with the dirt crammed up behind his ears, the halitosis that knocks-s-s-s .. and the ..
never mind.
so .. it will come to a head with me and him/her? it?.
(sorry, no, really i am)
i am going to tell him what i see.
how demeaning, how disrespectful his behavior is to me as a woman.
in his pretense of being sexually challenged, he invades my sense of what is proper behavior in the work place.
(no less - in public - i mean - come on! but that is another issue really)
so why should i have to be subjected to this clown?
his antics do not amuse me.
dude - please ! call it what it is. you are an attention whore .. end of story.
all i see is gutter-trash.
Friday
reads
china: readings on the middle kingdom
the pocket book of quotations
the lost books of the bible and the forgotten books of Eden
only three this time.
and the question ?
the pocket book of quotations
the lost books of the bible and the forgotten books of Eden
only three this time.
and the question ?
"the question is" said Alice, "whether you can make words mean so many different things."
"the question is," said Humpty Dumpty, "which is to be master - that's all."
Lewis Carroll, through the looking glass
Saturday
Friday
house wears
squeaky dryer taken apart and the fins repositioned. still making the awful squealing noise. belt looked ok. might be a roller. that means taking it apart again.
although the rollers looked fine from the back.
maybe where the drum is fastened to the face plate.
car fixed. alt was bad. a year of this and that and taking the car in and having the alt tested. three times it was tested. no ma'am the alt seems to be working fine. ok S replaced it and now it's working even finer with the new alt.
now to replace the blown lights all over from the old alt charging the old battery to hard and blowing stuff out. think that's the way it works.
gathering materials to redo the roof. rain won't give us a break for long in order to actually get started. so we are still just collecting materials and getting geared up to do it. will have to be done fast once we actually tear into it. not looking forward to it but will be a good learning experience. looking at gutter to replace old gutter that disappeared.
[mom gets the whip out. get to it boys]
want to sell the house and move out of TN. we are looking at someplace out more in the booneys. maybe in wash state or colo.
being closer to jake would be nice. that will take time.
although the rollers looked fine from the back.
maybe where the drum is fastened to the face plate.
car fixed. alt was bad. a year of this and that and taking the car in and having the alt tested. three times it was tested. no ma'am the alt seems to be working fine. ok S replaced it and now it's working even finer with the new alt.
now to replace the blown lights all over from the old alt charging the old battery to hard and blowing stuff out. think that's the way it works.
gathering materials to redo the roof. rain won't give us a break for long in order to actually get started. so we are still just collecting materials and getting geared up to do it. will have to be done fast once we actually tear into it. not looking forward to it but will be a good learning experience. looking at gutter to replace old gutter that disappeared.
[mom gets the whip out. get to it boys]
want to sell the house and move out of TN. we are looking at someplace out more in the booneys. maybe in wash state or colo.
being closer to jake would be nice. that will take time.
Thursday
Friday
'nother driver in the house
jord got his driver's license - good going kiddo
now - you recall the "10 pts for the mailbox" game you pulled on me?
we don't really do that.
now - you recall the "10 pts for the mailbox" game you pulled on me?
we don't really do that.
Saturday
house wears
ugg.
yard and driveway are all dirt now. we replaced the water main and regulator. get to start a-new with plants. will take some thinking.
later on
ack!
t-storms have turned the front yard into a mud puddle where we replaced the water main. two dump trucks of dirt coming this weekend and than gravel to redefine the driveway.
thinking of adding a - passion flower vine.
i love country living !
yard and driveway are all dirt now. we replaced the water main and regulator. get to start a-new with plants. will take some thinking.
later on
ack!
t-storms have turned the front yard into a mud puddle where we replaced the water main. two dump trucks of dirt coming this weekend and than gravel to redefine the driveway.
thinking of adding a - passion flower vine.
i love country living !
Friday
old names
found out hope has died.
not going to go into this to deeply as i have mixed emotions concerning the person hope was and the way he lived his life.
he left here to head out to las vegas 5 years ago. regardless.
it's a small world.
one of the boys ran into an old "hanging out" friend of hopes' from vegas, in town.
telling me about it led to a discussion of "the family" which led to a discussion about the mayan/toltec calendar and then on to the galactic center.
which than led me to looking at nasa's site - found this gem.
APOD: September 11, 1999 - The Annotated Galactic Center
2012 - we shall see if all this "family", toltec/mayan stuff is for real or not.
not going to go into this to deeply as i have mixed emotions concerning the person hope was and the way he lived his life.
he left here to head out to las vegas 5 years ago. regardless.
it's a small world.
one of the boys ran into an old "hanging out" friend of hopes' from vegas, in town.
telling me about it led to a discussion of "the family" which led to a discussion about the mayan/toltec calendar and then on to the galactic center.
which than led me to looking at nasa's site - found this gem.
APOD: September 11, 1999 - The Annotated Galactic Center
2012 - we shall see if all this "family", toltec/mayan stuff is for real or not.
Sunday
gut reactions
"Many years ago, it was the fashion to ridicule the idea of " love at first sight " ; but those who think, not less than those who feel deeply, have always advocated its existence. Modern discoveries, indeed, in what may be termed ethical magnetism or magneto-aesthetics, render it probable that the most natural, and, consequently, the truest and most intense of the human affections are those which arise in the heart as if by electric sympathy - in a word, that the brightest and most enduring of the psychal fetters are those which are riveted by a glance."
Poe - The Spectacles
Saturday
Thursday
toes
broke my little toe. again.
this is the second time i've broken a toe in the last couple of years. son of a gun it hurts.
need to move the furniture out of the house or get the boys to stop moving it around.
this is the second time i've broken a toe in the last couple of years. son of a gun it hurts.
need to move the furniture out of the house or get the boys to stop moving it around.
Sunday
vanity
hair cut today at the tangerine. jim said he would help me grow it to the length i want. will see how long it takes to get there.
want the knees length and since it's at the middle of my back now, this could take a few more years.
going to be fun!
last time i had this type of haircut service was in japan.
my head is relaxed. my hair is herbalyish smelling and he made my baby fine hair look soooo yummy.
want the knees length and since it's at the middle of my back now, this could take a few more years.
going to be fun!
last time i had this type of haircut service was in japan.
my head is relaxed. my hair is herbalyish smelling and he made my baby fine hair look soooo yummy.
Wednesday
music
new musicians showing up at the house lately.
nice to hear something other than the usual heavy metal.
let's see. jazz, bluegrass, dig the mandolin j.
oldies from the 70's and 80's with their dad.
love sick blues with jeff.
raunchy country with randy.
and it's really nice. really nice.
they are getting ready to play at the muse, so the heavy metal is back - full force.
told jon to play bare-chested and get a fake nipple ring. something about drummers beating the crap out of their drums makes the girls drool. so i was told.
yeah! think that's what's sexy nowadays?
nice to hear something other than the usual heavy metal.
let's see. jazz, bluegrass, dig the mandolin j.
oldies from the 70's and 80's with their dad.
love sick blues with jeff.
raunchy country with randy.
and it's really nice. really nice.
they are getting ready to play at the muse, so the heavy metal is back - full force.
told jon to play bare-chested and get a fake nipple ring. something about drummers beating the crap out of their drums makes the girls drool. so i was told.
yeah! think that's what's sexy nowadays?
Sunday
Wednesday
reads
reading to much again lately
this got me.
desire is difficult to push aside - at least for me
this got me.
"What you have made me see," answered the Lady, "is as plain as the sky, but i never saw it before. Yet it has happened every day. One goes into the forest to pick food and already the thought of one fruit rather than another has grown up in one's mind. Then, it may be, one finds a different fruit and not the fruit one thought of. One joy was expected and another is given. But this I had never noticed before - that the very moment of the finding there is in the mind a kind of thrusting back, or setting aside. The picture of the fruit you have not found is still, for a moment, before you. And if you wished - if it were possible to wish - you could keep it there. You could send your soul after the good you had expected, instead of turning it to the good you had got. You could refuse the real good; you could make the real fruit taste insipid by thinking of the other."
C. S. Lewis - Perelandra
desire is difficult to push aside - at least for me
Saturday
Chain of Fools
Aretha Franklin
Chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Five long years I thought you were my man
But I found out I'm just a link in your chain
You got me where you want me
I ain't nothing but your fool
You treated me mean oh you treated me cruel
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Every chain has got a weak link
I might be weak child, but I'll give you strength
You told me to leave you alone
My father said come on home
My doctor said take it easy
Whole bunch of lovin is much too strong
I'm added to your chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain,
Chain, chain of fools
One of these mornings the chain is gonna break
But up until then, yeah, I'm gonna take all I can take
Chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Five long years I thought you were my man
But I found out I'm just a link in your chain
You got me where you want me
I ain't nothing but your fool
You treated me mean oh you treated me cruel
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Every chain has got a weak link
I might be weak child, but I'll give you strength
You told me to leave you alone
My father said come on home
My doctor said take it easy
Whole bunch of lovin is much too strong
I'm added to your chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain,
Chain, chain of fools
One of these mornings the chain is gonna break
But up until then, yeah, I'm gonna take all I can take
Chain, chain, chain, chain, chain, chain
Chain, chain, chain, chain of fools
Wednesday
neighbors
think i have mentioned my retired neighbor and his habit of getting up at 6am and mowing his yard.
this was when i worked nights and slept days ... so it was a tad annoying until i got used to the racket.
well .. .. now that i am home i can see just how obsessed he is with it.
the guy mows his yard every other day.
i mean TN does have some fine grass growing weather. but dang.
so last month my other neighbor, to the right of me? he retires. this is the neighbor that thinks as long as he mows a side section of my yard. he can claim it as his. i just laugh.
anyway, he has a ride on mower and his yard is smaller than mine. ^!^
so they take turns. every day one of them is mowing.
i wish they would find something else to do.
this was when i worked nights and slept days ... so it was a tad annoying until i got used to the racket.
well .. .. now that i am home i can see just how obsessed he is with it.
the guy mows his yard every other day.
i mean TN does have some fine grass growing weather. but dang.
so last month my other neighbor, to the right of me? he retires. this is the neighbor that thinks as long as he mows a side section of my yard. he can claim it as his. i just laugh.
anyway, he has a ride on mower and his yard is smaller than mine. ^!^
so they take turns. every day one of them is mowing.
i wish they would find something else to do.
Thursday
nostalgic teevee
carol burnett /tugging her ear
laugh in /goldie hawn's laugh
the twilight zone /peeking out from under the covers to watch
andy griffith /opie was so cute! first crush
i love lucy /goofy lucy
the monkees /hey, hey it's the monkees. my second crush ~ einy meiny mieny moe
star trek /space the final frontier. my third crush
mickey mouse club /got bored with this one fast
alfred hitchcock presents /creepy
laugh in /goldie hawn's laugh
the twilight zone /peeking out from under the covers to watch
andy griffith /opie was so cute! first crush
i love lucy /goofy lucy
the monkees /hey, hey it's the monkees. my second crush ~ einy meiny mieny moe
star trek /space the final frontier. my third crush
mickey mouse club /got bored with this one fast
alfred hitchcock presents /creepy
Wednesday
time
time is going by so fast lately.
two of my boys have moved back in with me and both have been here for a couple of months.
trying to live with my two oldest boys as young adults is so vastly different than when they were little and believed everything I told them.
we are working hard at maintaining open and positive communications.
the ole .. "cause i'm the mom and i said so that's why" just doesn't cut it anymore. not that it really ever worked much before.
i sure had em going - for a few years.
two of my boys have moved back in with me and both have been here for a couple of months.
trying to live with my two oldest boys as young adults is so vastly different than when they were little and believed everything I told them.
we are working hard at maintaining open and positive communications.
the ole .. "cause i'm the mom and i said so that's why" just doesn't cut it anymore. not that it really ever worked much before.
i sure had em going - for a few years.
Friday
music
Radiohead
I Will
I will
lay me down
in a bunker
underground
I won't let this happen to my children
meet the real world coming out of your shell
With white elephants
sitting ducks
I will
rise up
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
i close my eyes and feel this song
I Will
I will
lay me down
in a bunker
underground
I won't let this happen to my children
meet the real world coming out of your shell
With white elephants
sitting ducks
I will
rise up
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Little babies' eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
i close my eyes and feel this song
pain
been a difficult last couple of weeks.
it has brought to my mind, again, the meaning of our humaness and how it flows through our inner concept of self.
- questioning us, what does this mean to me as a human - to be human.
how do i outwardly show what this concept of being human means to me.
we live our human-ess day in and day out.
- this human-ess. this sense of being alive. of responding to our own needs in a constructive manner
- or not
- of responding to the people intimately involved in our circle of human-ess
- or not.
how do we behave due to our perceptions of what is involved in this time consuming process of being
- what does it mean - this act of being a human.
have we lost it.?
compassion
possibly, compassion is a word others can understand
- or not.
is it innate? taught? a flash?
enlightenment is a term i have seen used. often.
have we lost our ability to be compassionate?
our ability to feel another's pain. to give of ourselves from the being rather than from the material atoms that swirl around us daily.
than a stranger enters your life. giving of themselves in a manner that you know comes from the heart. not from the 'what do i gain from this' line of thought but a giving of themselves that humbles you and makes you realize your not as human as you could be in your own life.
meeting such a person restores a bit of the lost faith and innocence, the trust that you had lost because of the carelessness of the one not understanding their "humaness" and what it means to act humanly.
love
kindness
tolerance
compromise
we have lost the feeling of these words.
the churches spew it out, but only if you agree with what they are spewing out - only if - then the compassion is allowed to surface.
that has it's price.
and i ramble because i am very confused and my pain is overwhelming.
tomorrow will be different i know.
our past is unavailable and lost - our future is what we are right now.
i want to be more human in my future regardless of the cliffs that block me.
it has brought to my mind, again, the meaning of our humaness and how it flows through our inner concept of self.
- questioning us, what does this mean to me as a human - to be human.
how do i outwardly show what this concept of being human means to me.
we live our human-ess day in and day out.
- this human-ess. this sense of being alive. of responding to our own needs in a constructive manner
- or not
- of responding to the people intimately involved in our circle of human-ess
- or not.
how do we behave due to our perceptions of what is involved in this time consuming process of being
- what does it mean - this act of being a human.
have we lost it.?
compassion
your suffering is my suffering and your happiness is my happiness.
shakyamuni Buddha
possibly, compassion is a word others can understand
- or not.
is it innate? taught? a flash?
enlightenment is a term i have seen used. often.
have we lost our ability to be compassionate?
our ability to feel another's pain. to give of ourselves from the being rather than from the material atoms that swirl around us daily.
than a stranger enters your life. giving of themselves in a manner that you know comes from the heart. not from the 'what do i gain from this' line of thought but a giving of themselves that humbles you and makes you realize your not as human as you could be in your own life.
meeting such a person restores a bit of the lost faith and innocence, the trust that you had lost because of the carelessness of the one not understanding their "humaness" and what it means to act humanly.
love
kindness
tolerance
compromise
we have lost the feeling of these words.
the churches spew it out, but only if you agree with what they are spewing out - only if - then the compassion is allowed to surface.
that has it's price.
and i ramble because i am very confused and my pain is overwhelming.
tomorrow will be different i know.
our past is unavailable and lost - our future is what we are right now.
i want to be more human in my future regardless of the cliffs that block me.
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