Saturday

Book title?

Number one son rattling off word junk the other night, this one caught my ears.

"How to live with STD's" by Sharin Dicks

Funny kid.

Thursday

Hope your well

JBP - I want you to know.
I am not going to try to lay any guilt trip on you, although I seriously want to.
But that is not me.
I do want you to realize and know my heart is in turmoil for you. How can it not be.
This is not what I had envisioned for you. But that was my vision and not yours.

I know your a young man now and you make your own choices in your life.
I want you to know I will always!always love you no matter what you choose to do or how you choose to live your life.

There will never be any variance in that. Ever.

I can not admit that I am okay with a couple of the choices you have made and I wish I could of done something or could turn back a clock and make it different, but as you know I am a realist and will accept your decisions.

I can also understand the choices you have made. I am sorry that this is the way it is.
I am so full of misgivings about how "things" are now as versus "how it was" and I wish you could of "been when I was" instead of now.
Things wouldn't be going down this path if that were the case.
I am not sorry for birthing you. Never. You have brought me so much joy and light. I am in love with you and who you are. What more could any mother ask for?

I love you so deeply and I want you to be happy. That is all I want. I know my ideas of what constitutes happiness are different than yours. I will accept this.
I will not turn my back on you.
I will always be here for you no matter what.
I want you to know this. I know you will read this if you get a chance and since I am rarely hearing from you I thought this would be okay.
Your gems have not arrived btw. :(

Tuesday

Prarie Fire Rocks

Prarie Fire

My son's band getting ready to tour the south.

Catch them if they head your way.

You won't be disappointed.