one of the local newspapers in murfreesboro {dnj} hired me. part time, 3 days a week. worked out to be 5 days a week but what the hay.
after being on headlines for 6 days straight {aye i was scheduled to work 6 days in a row, this is a part time job mind you} - loading paper into a hopper that was out of reach and off my center of balance. my lower back felt like i'd jacked up a disc. i called out - took off a day.
took off another day.
soooo - day before thanksgiving the water main broke in the front yard. took off that day.
than thanksgiving i was off.
took the day after thanksgiving off in order to get the water main finished up. { didn't locate the leak until late night the day before thanksgiving... than the stores were closed on thanksgiving... day after thanksgiving i helped fix it }
a couple few days aye?
i called and talked to the supervisor each time too so don't go thinking i just didn't now.
so i head in to work on my next regular scheduled day and go to write down my hours for the next week and lo. i am not listed as working. find the supervisor and ask "what up".
"had to let you go" he tells me. "to many days out without calling".
cuse me?
oh well was fun while it lasted
Wednesday
Friday
reads
memory believes before knowing remembers. believes longer than recollects, longer than knowing even remembers.
William Faulkner - Light of August
kate brought this series of books - thank you much.
Saturday
on being sensitive
Ok, so I am told by my male boarder, who has rented out from me for over a year, that he is a cross dresser!!
Ok, I can handle that, but now he is walking around in ladies lacy underwear ?
Ok, I can be as open minded as the next girlie but just something isn't kosher about a dude that is 6'9" and looks like Abe Lincoln strutting around in lacy underwear.
Ok, when I use the word "Ok" to many times you know I am a tad bugged.
Ok?
Ok, I can handle that, but now he is walking around in ladies lacy underwear ?
Ok, I can be as open minded as the next girlie but just something isn't kosher about a dude that is 6'9" and looks like Abe Lincoln strutting around in lacy underwear.
Ok, when I use the word "Ok" to many times you know I am a tad bugged.
Ok?
Friday
racism in the south
oh yah, got a beef. meant to yak about this the night it happened but we got involved in a discussion of 'manners' and just when is it appropriate to speak up concerning an injustice.
so - jord and kat go out to eat with kat's friends from brentwood and franklin.
(they picked a mexican restaurant to do this in)
kat's friends start slamming the workers because they were from mexico and mexican and spoke better spanish than english and so on and so on. jord doesn't put up with that in any circumstance and he told me the mind blower was that these 'rich, but ignorant, kids' did it right in the servers faces and not behind their backs like most good racists do.
they made rude, loud, caustic comments according to jord.
so ~ of course jord spoke up. boy, i guess the shinola hit the fan. jord lost his temper, kat became upset due to jord's 'rudeness' towards her friends in pointing out their 'racism' (snort) and it spilled over into the whole house later that night.
i am proud of you jord. even in and through discomfort you stuck up for what you knew was right and wrong.
who the f**k cares about 'manners' (again, i laugh) when this type of thinking is so blatant among our young here in the south. i'll step down while it's still a short entry.
so - jord and kat go out to eat with kat's friends from brentwood and franklin.
(they picked a mexican restaurant to do this in)
kat's friends start slamming the workers because they were from mexico and mexican and spoke better spanish than english and so on and so on. jord doesn't put up with that in any circumstance and he told me the mind blower was that these 'rich, but ignorant, kids' did it right in the servers faces and not behind their backs like most good racists do.
they made rude, loud, caustic comments according to jord.
so ~ of course jord spoke up. boy, i guess the shinola hit the fan. jord lost his temper, kat became upset due to jord's 'rudeness' towards her friends in pointing out their 'racism' (snort) and it spilled over into the whole house later that night.
i am proud of you jord. even in and through discomfort you stuck up for what you knew was right and wrong.
who the f**k cares about 'manners' (again, i laugh) when this type of thinking is so blatant among our young here in the south. i'll step down while it's still a short entry.
Thursday
busy busy
being lax on the blogger updating. selling on ebay is going better than i expected and really keeping me hopping. my mistake was listing so many darn things at once. be good to get it all out the door though so i can concentrate on getting the stuff i'm keeping straight. be good to be sewing again too, actually. been awhile.
love the new blogger. wonder if j has had time to look at it. have to remind him to take a lookie loo.
pulling boxes out of the back storage closet and with my palm (yup) i'm swiping baby brown recluses as i go.
i really need to bomb 'em outta there one of these days.
love the new blogger. wonder if j has had time to look at it. have to remind him to take a lookie loo.
pulling boxes out of the back storage closet and with my palm (yup) i'm swiping baby brown recluses as i go.
i really need to bomb 'em outta there one of these days.
Tuesday
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3. weapons of mass destruction? proof - at last?
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3. weapons of mass destruction? proof - at last?
Friday
around the house doings
some of my button collection. couldn't get em all on here. the clean up would of been yucky
buttons. i have many, many tins of old and wonderful buttons. fat mother of pearl, leather, seeded pearls, ceramic, stone, ironwood, shell, enamel. on and on. i love them and what they represent. a little slice of a woman's sewing life. if only they could whisper.
sewing. yeah, back to sewing. boxes are taking up space in the living room waiting for me to open them up and trip down memory lane while i figure out just what i have to work with. found superman capes and an old halloween clown costume that jord won a contest with, most of my old antique hankies that i want to turn into a quilt. so much. all the stuff barbie laid on me before i moved could fill a small shop just in it's self. maybe this will help me get out of my phunk.
Sunday
animals
sick - o -- if you've got a weak stomach - as i do ------ well
from msu's landscape CAT [crop advisory team] alert web site
Adult Cuterebra flies are huge by fly standards. Some are as big as 3/4 of an inch or longer with robust and hairy, bumblebee-like bodies. They are rarely seen. Females lay their eggs in or near the entrance of the host's burrow (or cage). When the eggs mature, they are ready to hatch within seconds after the host's body heat is detected. To catch a host, the tiny maggot pops a hole in the skin of the egg and sticks out its hook-like mandible (jaws) and grabs hold of the fur of the unsuspecting host. Once on board, the maggot enters the host through a natural body opening or chews through one of its own making. After a few days the larva migrates to a particular area of the host's body, which varies with the species of the bot. [bot ? bot ? damn] Once suitably located, the tiny maggot forms a pocket-like warble (bot) just under the skin. The rabbit bot prefers the back of the neck [italics mine] while the mouse bot prefers the belly area. One species that attacks chipmunks, Cuterebra emasculator, seems to prefer the scrotum if its host happens to be male.
from dr barney
Outdoor cats pick them up when small flies lay eggs on the skin of the face. These eggs hatch into larvae which migrate into the nose and then under the skin to emerge from the neck or back of the animal. Once the larva drops from the animal, it eventually develops into a fly to complete the life cycle.
now the story - i finally caught the kitten. ya, it is wild as heck. after wrapping it in a towel i took a closer look at the bloody spot on it's neck. a frigging worm was sticking the end of it's bod out of this little hole in the kittens neck. did i puke? naw. i went and grabbed the rubbing alcohol and poured it all over. did it help ? doubtful. so i went searching on the net as to what it could possibly be since vets charge an arm and a leg to even look at an animal and jeez this one isn't even one of mine, it was probably dropped off along with it's mama. pox on people who dump animals. so --- this is what i'll be doing tomorrow. cutting a maggot out from under the kittens' neck. got the scalpel, betadine and enough gauze and tape to wrap a human arm. shall see if i can stomach this. true i am a medical assistant but damn it's a frigging worm or maggot or whatever you want to call it. the extent of my exposure to parasites are the books at UCLA and my morbid curiosity not the actual b.s. sigh.
from msu's landscape CAT [crop advisory team] alert web site
Adult Cuterebra flies are huge by fly standards. Some are as big as 3/4 of an inch or longer with robust and hairy, bumblebee-like bodies. They are rarely seen. Females lay their eggs in or near the entrance of the host's burrow (or cage). When the eggs mature, they are ready to hatch within seconds after the host's body heat is detected. To catch a host, the tiny maggot pops a hole in the skin of the egg and sticks out its hook-like mandible (jaws) and grabs hold of the fur of the unsuspecting host. Once on board, the maggot enters the host through a natural body opening or chews through one of its own making. After a few days the larva migrates to a particular area of the host's body, which varies with the species of the bot. [bot ? bot ? damn] Once suitably located, the tiny maggot forms a pocket-like warble (bot) just under the skin. The rabbit bot prefers the back of the neck [italics mine] while the mouse bot prefers the belly area. One species that attacks chipmunks, Cuterebra emasculator, seems to prefer the scrotum if its host happens to be male.
from dr barney
Outdoor cats pick them up when small flies lay eggs on the skin of the face. These eggs hatch into larvae which migrate into the nose and then under the skin to emerge from the neck or back of the animal. Once the larva drops from the animal, it eventually develops into a fly to complete the life cycle.
now the story - i finally caught the kitten. ya, it is wild as heck. after wrapping it in a towel i took a closer look at the bloody spot on it's neck. a frigging worm was sticking the end of it's bod out of this little hole in the kittens neck. did i puke? naw. i went and grabbed the rubbing alcohol and poured it all over. did it help ? doubtful. so i went searching on the net as to what it could possibly be since vets charge an arm and a leg to even look at an animal and jeez this one isn't even one of mine, it was probably dropped off along with it's mama. pox on people who dump animals. so --- this is what i'll be doing tomorrow. cutting a maggot out from under the kittens' neck. got the scalpel, betadine and enough gauze and tape to wrap a human arm. shall see if i can stomach this. true i am a medical assistant but damn it's a frigging worm or maggot or whatever you want to call it. the extent of my exposure to parasites are the books at UCLA and my morbid curiosity not the actual b.s. sigh.
Friday
the tree that was
the plum tree in the front yard was picked up by a gust of wind and laid over on it's side. it missed one of the kids standing on the porch, watching the storm by mere inches.
it was a nice tree even though i never could get any plums off of it because the birds were just a bit smarter about it than i, when it came to getting there first.
micheal had pruned it back hard one year and it was looking real good.
oh well, it was in front of the door anyway.
went driving the farm roads and saw that most everyone has a tree or "several" trees down. chainsaws are firing up like mad.
and more animals! like lots! of them - what the hell
i have one cat and one cat only and half the time she isn't even here anymore. and she is old!! and cranky!!
so, how come all the sudden there are now 7 cats hanging out at my house??
i am not going to feed them. i am not!!
2 of them are kittens and the calico colored one has a bloody spot on it's neck. guess i will at least nurse that and make sure it's not serious.
it was a nice tree even though i never could get any plums off of it because the birds were just a bit smarter about it than i, when it came to getting there first.
micheal had pruned it back hard one year and it was looking real good.
oh well, it was in front of the door anyway.
went driving the farm roads and saw that most everyone has a tree or "several" trees down. chainsaws are firing up like mad.
and more animals! like lots! of them - what the hell
i have one cat and one cat only and half the time she isn't even here anymore. and she is old!! and cranky!!
so, how come all the sudden there are now 7 cats hanging out at my house??
i am not going to feed them. i am not!!
2 of them are kittens and the calico colored one has a bloody spot on it's neck. guess i will at least nurse that and make sure it's not serious.
Saturday
lost children
a dark heavy blanket is over us all. today is tyler's last party and tomorrow the funeral. hard to believe that tyler will never again come to the door. never again talk to us about his dreams and hopes. i can't go to the chapel. tyler's last words to me were "you know me, i think of you as a mom."
the kids all gathered here to head up to chapel hill. you can see on their faces that this has had a great impact on their thoughts. our grief is overwhelming. i hate death and the thoughts it brings. we will miss you so very much tyler.
the kids all gathered here to head up to chapel hill. you can see on their faces that this has had a great impact on their thoughts. our grief is overwhelming. i hate death and the thoughts it brings. we will miss you so very much tyler.
Friday
lost children
tyler was taken off of life support yesterday morning and allowed to take his last breathe on his own. my life will not be the same without him in it. goodbye tyler, you were a brief flicker and our lives were enriched by your friendship. i knew this would come - we all did. it doesn't come any easier knowing this. the kids had a small memorial at the house. they came and went all day remembering tyler in the only way they could, by talking about all the joy they had shared together. goodbye child. may you find peace.
jake is in the icu being kept in a coma to allow his brain to heal. i can not imagine the suffering his family is experiencing at this time. he is in our thoughts and prayers willing him to at least come back to us as a functioning human being.
we sat and thought of all the kids in our little world that have died due to drunk driving over the last 6 years. 8. 8! 8 lives. 8 sons and daughters. to many to comprehend.
jake is in the icu being kept in a coma to allow his brain to heal. i can not imagine the suffering his family is experiencing at this time. he is in our thoughts and prayers willing him to at least come back to us as a functioning human being.
we sat and thought of all the kids in our little world that have died due to drunk driving over the last 6 years. 8. 8! 8 lives. 8 sons and daughters. to many to comprehend.
Tuesday
memories
wonder if mom and james remember this one? Ancon Theatre Guild
arm your pop-up stopper guys, you have been warned ^!^
arm your pop-up stopper guys, you have been warned ^!^
Sunday
jobs i'm working my way through
cooking at a fairly elegant billiards club in town. not a bad job. cept she starts me out with part time and already im heading into overtime. once again.
oh well. at least i don't have to deal with the drinkers.
*lasted a whole week guys.
they had me doing dishes and man, i just don't really like doing dishes ...
ya know? yeah, sure ya do.
oh well. at least i don't have to deal with the drinkers.
*lasted a whole week guys.
they had me doing dishes and man, i just don't really like doing dishes ...
ya know? yeah, sure ya do.
Monday
home sweet home
a month with k did me in. i'm going to cocoon for awhile than head back to work so i can spend my next vacation indulging myself a little more.
need to go into town and let my librarian know how much i appreciate her. the librarians in corsicana have to be some of the rudest ones i've ever met.
need to go into town and let my librarian know how much i appreciate her. the librarians in corsicana have to be some of the rudest ones i've ever met.
Friday
country living and the problem with waste
ever live with a septic tank? no? ok. this is what i've come to learn over the years. educate the ones raised in the city that you do not - do not! throw butts, tampons, paper, etc, etc, etc in the toliet. nuff said. simple. easy. got it???
you sure you got it!!?? i mean how hard can it be?
you sure you got it!!?? i mean how hard can it be?
Thursday
heat
texas is so unbearably hot and humid. never again will i think of tn heat as the heat to end all heat. being on top of a lake sure isn't helping any.
don't burn the house down while im gone kids and be good.
library computer - so this is short, ciao and love.
don't burn the house down while im gone kids and be good.
library computer - so this is short, ciao and love.
Monday
how long do these kids live i wonder?
Kid I know is gay (nothing new around here lately).
Kid frequents the gay bars.
I ask same kid "Hey Dude, what is this all about"?
So he proceeds to explain it to me.
Oh my ever living!
Ok, there are places that have holes in the wall . ..... . Can you guess the rest?
I am disgusted. He says he is not involved in this lifestyle anymore, yet I have heard him discussing his sexual activities with my roommates. He is fairly promiscuous in my opinion.
I asked him if he kept up with the statistics being collected on Hiv/Aids here in Middle Tennessee and he told me? no one had ever bothered to talk to him about his sexual health.
Most just want to grab on and ride. So he says.
Kid frequents the gay bars.
I ask same kid "Hey Dude, what is this all about"?
So he proceeds to explain it to me.
Oh my ever living!
Ok, there are places that have holes in the wall . ..... . Can you guess the rest?
I am disgusted. He says he is not involved in this lifestyle anymore, yet I have heard him discussing his sexual activities with my roommates. He is fairly promiscuous in my opinion.
I asked him if he kept up with the statistics being collected on Hiv/Aids here in Middle Tennessee and he told me? no one had ever bothered to talk to him about his sexual health.
Most just want to grab on and ride. So he says.
Friday
mamacat
j brought 'mamacat' home hiding her in his room while he avoids me like the plague until i finally say to him 'hey, sup with you why you acting all weird' and he's giving me puppy eyes and blurts out 'mom your going to be mad at me i've got a cat and' i'm like 'oh, that's cool where is it' but he's finishing with 'and she's pregnant'. ok we can deal with this kittens are cute and easy to give away. jon tried to name her 'isabelle' but no one could quite get their tongue around calling this angry moody arrogant female 'isabelle' so over time it's settled on down to 'mamacat' after going through 'bitchcat' status for awhile and at last she has deemed us worthy to pet her if she is in the mood and if not you understand this right away as she gets in a hissy swipe. but really she's a cool cat even though we think she was abused and we all hope she will calm down. eventually.
'mamacat'
'mamacat'
Wednesday
beginning of the end?
*Scientists Develop First Artificial Brain Section
neato - wait 15 years and they will be able to replace functions we didn't know could be replaced. seriously - this is wonderful for patients afflicted with diseases affecting this part of the brain but think of the possibilities .. muhahaaaa. eventually it's going to come down to 'just how much of the human brain can you replace and still be considered human?'
neato - wait 15 years and they will be able to replace functions we didn't know could be replaced. seriously - this is wonderful for patients afflicted with diseases affecting this part of the brain but think of the possibilities .. muhahaaaa. eventually it's going to come down to 'just how much of the human brain can you replace and still be considered human?'
Saturday
web site stuff
since i've dropped prodigy as an isp [funny they would have toll free dialup numbers in little eagleville tenn miles away from no where, but not one dialup number for the lake area that is like 5 mins from major city escondido. go figure] i lost the space i had to store my photos, main webpage index, etc. so in my quest to totally make all this *web stuff free to accomplish, i went hunting again for free hosters. mark, my friend in watertown that takes care of the crackerbarrel feedback sites was kind enough to give me 20mg on his server but i can not get the ftp stuff figured out yet and he was still in costa rica and i in calif as i was trying to do a switch over from prodigy to his server. so the hands on learning curve was way off it's - well curve. *boomspeed: offers 1mg of space for free. *esmartstart: offers 20mg and a bag of goodies. i'm finding myself using the esmartstart alot as it's easy to understand, simple to use, and reliable.
so -- i've been busy making a new site from scratch .. prodigy uses the wusiwug type template and now i've gone out and attempted to put together a site. beware. it is a free site so there are those dreaded annoying popups. make sure you have your pop up stopper gear on. or just put up with it. there are only three and if you leave them open and minimized it's not as disturbing. *h3arts0ngs
so -- i've been busy making a new site from scratch .. prodigy uses the wusiwug type template and now i've gone out and attempted to put together a site. beware. it is a free site so there are those dreaded annoying popups. make sure you have your pop up stopper gear on. or just put up with it. there are only three and if you leave them open and minimized it's not as disturbing. *h3arts0ngs
Friday
art
kids
mikes' son kris is nicknamed 'krazy kris' for a reason. showed up at the lake with his left arm in a cast. this is the crowd he has been hanging with the last couple years. if you think skateboarding was a physical punishment. check out this new sport. mountain boarding. a bunch of them hang and call themselves the "hootervillian's". kris is this months center fold showing off his tats' and some krazy jumps. pretty cool stuff.
(had a link to the mag but as the way of all young and budding enterprizes. it's defunct. to bad it was neat.)
Wednesday
shake rattle and babies !
what in the world was that rattle?
i'm doing homework in the bedroom and the bookcase starts shaking and the little treasures i collect when i go on walks with the babies are falling around me onto the bed and i jump up and run into the other room making the babies that are way to young to cope with this making them get up out of bed and come with me into the kitchen to get under the table while everything is shaking and it's like a just like a shake i've felt before at a carnival when i was little and the floor heaves a bit just barely but enough so i know it has done something it shouldn't of done and oh god are the blocks going to hold the trailer when is this going to stop cause the babies are crying and i've got the babies wrapped up in my arms their faces in my armpits and finally finally everything just stops.
later i find out there was an earthquake in los angeles. 120 miles to the north.
i'm doing homework in the bedroom and the bookcase starts shaking and the little treasures i collect when i go on walks with the babies are falling around me onto the bed and i jump up and run into the other room making the babies that are way to young to cope with this making them get up out of bed and come with me into the kitchen to get under the table while everything is shaking and it's like a just like a shake i've felt before at a carnival when i was little and the floor heaves a bit just barely but enough so i know it has done something it shouldn't of done and oh god are the blocks going to hold the trailer when is this going to stop cause the babies are crying and i've got the babies wrapped up in my arms their faces in my armpits and finally finally everything just stops.
later i find out there was an earthquake in los angeles. 120 miles to the north.
Tuesday
front door/back door
been thinking about what might be considered normal/abnormal and whose definitions/ideologies we hold up in order to label whoever busts out with these behavioral attributes.
i like to surf the net. i do indeed come across some odd? strange or cute? abnormal? paranoid/ha not i? bizarre? misinformed? perverted? [all these skewed terms] oh and devious? evil? people truly are. i have this dark side in me. i passively/fun? indulge it. but anyway, so i'm always running across some unusual websites that people put together to get their opinions out there to the masses and i wonder if some of these sites are put out for the shock value only, or if these people are sincere and truly believe this.
another website that disturbs me ~ http://www.kukluxklan.org/just_for_kids.htm ~ as it is aimed at children and the young adult. i pray a child's family life is strong enough to keep a young mind from being influenced by this trash with the hate and evil that it's disinformation spreads. sick trash.
(had a link here pointing to that above kkk site aimed soley at kids. heads up people. it's dumped now but i'm positive there are many more out there to take it's place.)
i like to surf the net. i do indeed come across some odd? strange or cute? abnormal? paranoid/ha not i? bizarre? misinformed? perverted? [all these skewed terms] oh and devious? evil? people truly are. i have this dark side in me. i passively/fun? indulge it. but anyway, so i'm always running across some unusual websites that people put together to get their opinions out there to the masses and i wonder if some of these sites are put out for the shock value only, or if these people are sincere and truly believe this.
another website that disturbs me ~ http://www.kukluxklan.org/just_for_kids.htm ~ as it is aimed at children and the young adult. i pray a child's family life is strong enough to keep a young mind from being influenced by this trash with the hate and evil that it's disinformation spreads. sick trash.
(had a link here pointing to that above kkk site aimed soley at kids. heads up people. it's dumped now but i'm positive there are many more out there to take it's place.)
Saturday
war does what?
nothing is inevitable until it is accomplished and proven so by hindsight.
jack l chalker
weapons of mass destruction ? ka-boom
Friday
homesic?
i am ready to be home.
calif is nice to visit but i'm very pleased with myself that i left for tn when i did.
the lake resort is not what it used to be but than it ceased being that two years before i opened up a map, closed my eyes and let my fingers find our next "home". lake wohlford is still a beautiful resort - although the lake is half the level it was when i left and the flat land at the bottom of the mountain [where the boys used to dirt bike] is now a church/school and huge parking lot.
get this - there is even a "dog park" [white plastic bags line the wire fence. odd visual.] attached to the new humane society next to the aqua duct.
new houses are still going up around the perimeter of escondido. sadly, most of the old shops i used to frequent are now advertising in spanish and the vietnamese restaurant is no longer there next to the laundry mat. that disturbed me the most i believe.
my love of asian food overcomes me sometimes. mike and i went to a new sushi bar he frequents and our meal ran over 50 bucks. senseless.
food was good, but not that good.
bob let me know he is very angry with me for just giving the trailer to renee'. hmm - wonder if i should care, i do and i don't.
the flower garden little fingers and i planted years ago is beautiful, renee' has taken good care of it. the apricot tree where jacob's afterbirth was laid to rest under a mass of blossoms and promise of things to come had been taken down to make room for a new trailer. don't believe i'll tell jacob that though. he has always considered that tree his "special tree". after all he helped it grow.
my friends are still in that party stuff most days, so i'm ready to head out. sad when you out grow your oldest friends.
jordan to the phish concert in Cincinnati, OH the 21st. anxious to hear how it went but will have to wait until i get home.
calif is nice to visit but i'm very pleased with myself that i left for tn when i did.
the lake resort is not what it used to be but than it ceased being that two years before i opened up a map, closed my eyes and let my fingers find our next "home". lake wohlford is still a beautiful resort - although the lake is half the level it was when i left and the flat land at the bottom of the mountain [where the boys used to dirt bike] is now a church/school and huge parking lot.
get this - there is even a "dog park" [white plastic bags line the wire fence. odd visual.] attached to the new humane society next to the aqua duct.
new houses are still going up around the perimeter of escondido. sadly, most of the old shops i used to frequent are now advertising in spanish and the vietnamese restaurant is no longer there next to the laundry mat. that disturbed me the most i believe.
my love of asian food overcomes me sometimes. mike and i went to a new sushi bar he frequents and our meal ran over 50 bucks. senseless.
food was good, but not that good.
bob let me know he is very angry with me for just giving the trailer to renee'. hmm - wonder if i should care, i do and i don't.
the flower garden little fingers and i planted years ago is beautiful, renee' has taken good care of it. the apricot tree where jacob's afterbirth was laid to rest under a mass of blossoms and promise of things to come had been taken down to make room for a new trailer. don't believe i'll tell jacob that though. he has always considered that tree his "special tree". after all he helped it grow.
my friends are still in that party stuff most days, so i'm ready to head out. sad when you out grow your oldest friends.
jordan to the phish concert in Cincinnati, OH the 21st. anxious to hear how it went but will have to wait until i get home.
Tuesday
happy birthday
[mom is the cutie holding the doll. aunt sue is in pink]
how old is she? i have no clue. her age is not something we ever discussed.
aren't they just cuties?
Saturday
this girl
is homesick
grrr. my bed. how i love my bed - i'm thinking about this as i move the cushions around getting ready to sleep on this couch that has no were near the comfort of my wonderful bed which is smothered [get this] under 8 [yes - really] feather pillows, 2 heavy quilts, mamacat laying on my feet and the three books i lost in the covers.
the couch is small.
grrr. my bed. how i love my bed - i'm thinking about this as i move the cushions around getting ready to sleep on this couch that has no were near the comfort of my wonderful bed which is smothered [get this] under 8 [yes - really] feather pillows, 2 heavy quilts, mamacat laying on my feet and the three books i lost in the covers.
the couch is small.
Friday
~ <3 ~ <3 ~ <3 ~
i love you
happy valentines day
i am enjoying warm, misty weather in california while tennessee is expecting more snow.
hope everyone's day is fine.
happy valentines day
i am enjoying warm, misty weather in california while tennessee is expecting more snow.
hope everyone's day is fine.
Tuesday
touch down
in calif were it's warm and rainy. got here - let the guys back home know i was safe in the nest and SLEPT.
my bod was still feeling road buzz from the long haul. going to give it another day before i get out and say hi to all the old folks. mike says some of them are still alive.
my bod was still feeling road buzz from the long haul. going to give it another day before i get out and say hi to all the old folks. mike says some of them are still alive.
Friday
take off
left tennessee wednesday 5th around 4p and arrived in colorado thursday about 9p.
stayed two wonderful nights at j's in aurora then off to scott's in colorado springs whom i had never met but is a friend of jordan and crystal's.
he was a gracious host and interesting guy.
from tennessee to colorado it snowed the entire drive [boy am i glad to of gotten the heater working before i left] but the interstates were kept clear. saw a sign saying "Don't get Plowed" and pondered who would be "dumb enough to leave their car on the side of the road" or "what plow driver" would even consider hitting a car parked off the side of the interstate. suddenly - i come upon a plow driving 60 miles an hour with his blade barely off the surface of the shoulder. the plume of dirty snow he threw out was impressive. i learned the meaning of "Don't get Plowed".
slept for 5 hours in a missouri rest stop. pulled in around midnight and took me awhile to settle down and get to sleep.
around 6a there is a pounding on my car window.
some guy asking if i had cable - in very broken english. i glance at his van and see two more guys sitting there. i looked at him bewildered and drive off. as if i'm going to open my door to this. other than that the drive was uneventful.
stayed two wonderful nights at j's in aurora then off to scott's in colorado springs whom i had never met but is a friend of jordan and crystal's.
he was a gracious host and interesting guy.
from tennessee to colorado it snowed the entire drive [boy am i glad to of gotten the heater working before i left] but the interstates were kept clear. saw a sign saying "Don't get Plowed" and pondered who would be "dumb enough to leave their car on the side of the road" or "what plow driver" would even consider hitting a car parked off the side of the interstate. suddenly - i come upon a plow driving 60 miles an hour with his blade barely off the surface of the shoulder. the plume of dirty snow he threw out was impressive. i learned the meaning of "Don't get Plowed".
slept for 5 hours in a missouri rest stop. pulled in around midnight and took me awhile to settle down and get to sleep.
around 6a there is a pounding on my car window.
some guy asking if i had cable - in very broken english. i glance at his van and see two more guys sitting there. i looked at him bewildered and drive off. as if i'm going to open my door to this. other than that the drive was uneventful.
Thursday
racism in the south
this is quite upsetting. living in tn these last few years has been a eye opener. I am still shocked at some incident of racism/rudeness directed toward someone based on the color of their skin. And shocked again to realize that this is common here. Still !!
i was disgusted when the owner of our local restaurant refused to serve a worker from the tobacco field - based on the color of his skin. I hear it in the way some of these 'southern born and bred' folks talk at the local grocery store.
Many of the folks around here (pop. 450) are farmers and still carry the attitudes of their upbringing.
I'm not surprised though that it goes both ways. Caucasian, Black, Asian, Spanish, Middle Eastern - you name it. If you encounter someone that you perceive as 'different' than you, you more than likely have some preconceived notion about that person whether you want to or not. This is one of the problems we have to address when struggling to end racism among our peoples.
What we tell our children, how we ourselves feel and believe, how we react to others that behave in an inappropriate manner to someone based on their appearance and how we ourselves behave.
I remember my own mother in the 60's saying we could not drink out of a water fountain because a "colored" person had. I was extremely confused as I had never heard either of my parents express any bias towards a race or culture before. I, not even understanding the concept of racism and then to hear my mother say something like that?. It blew my mind. (It was the only time I ever heard her make a statement like that and believe she took a good hard look at her belief system/values and made the necessary adjustments to filter out the trash bin that horrid thought came from - thank goodness.)
I myself have a problem with certain behavioral norms in some cultures - but that does not by any means include a language or skin color prejudice. I could care less what color your skin is, or what language you speak or where your from. If your culture accepts or encourages abuse of human rights as a norm, I'm going to speak out.
Racism is a weed - rooted deep in ignorance and narrow-minded thinking. It's up to each of us in our own way to eliminate it. I doubt I'll see it's complete eradication in my life time. But at least we are trying.
Affirmative Action blows BTW and as long as our government is out of control or misdirected .. well.
i was disgusted when the owner of our local restaurant refused to serve a worker from the tobacco field - based on the color of his skin. I hear it in the way some of these 'southern born and bred' folks talk at the local grocery store.
Many of the folks around here (pop. 450) are farmers and still carry the attitudes of their upbringing.
I'm not surprised though that it goes both ways. Caucasian, Black, Asian, Spanish, Middle Eastern - you name it. If you encounter someone that you perceive as 'different' than you, you more than likely have some preconceived notion about that person whether you want to or not. This is one of the problems we have to address when struggling to end racism among our peoples.
What we tell our children, how we ourselves feel and believe, how we react to others that behave in an inappropriate manner to someone based on their appearance and how we ourselves behave.
I remember my own mother in the 60's saying we could not drink out of a water fountain because a "colored" person had. I was extremely confused as I had never heard either of my parents express any bias towards a race or culture before. I, not even understanding the concept of racism and then to hear my mother say something like that?. It blew my mind. (It was the only time I ever heard her make a statement like that and believe she took a good hard look at her belief system/values and made the necessary adjustments to filter out the trash bin that horrid thought came from - thank goodness.)
I myself have a problem with certain behavioral norms in some cultures - but that does not by any means include a language or skin color prejudice. I could care less what color your skin is, or what language you speak or where your from. If your culture accepts or encourages abuse of human rights as a norm, I'm going to speak out.
Racism is a weed - rooted deep in ignorance and narrow-minded thinking. It's up to each of us in our own way to eliminate it. I doubt I'll see it's complete eradication in my life time. But at least we are trying.
Affirmative Action blows BTW and as long as our government is out of control or misdirected .. well.
Tuesday
thank you'se
to whomever bought me the subscription to threads, a big thank you.
i remember when this magazine came out. it tended toward artsy fabric work and a touch of the more advanced tailoring tips nested in it's pages. haven't seen one in a long time.
again - thank you. if it's who i think it is - trying to tell me something?
who are you?
found this. enneagram personality test. and if you want to know how really deranged you are - check this one out. the purity test at the spark.
i remember when this magazine came out. it tended toward artsy fabric work and a touch of the more advanced tailoring tips nested in it's pages. haven't seen one in a long time.
again - thank you. if it's who i think it is - trying to tell me something?
who are you?
found this. enneagram personality test. and if you want to know how really deranged you are - check this one out. the purity test at the spark.
Thursday
eagleville weather
snow and 7 deg. brrrrrrr. got a glimpse of the mail lady as she was driving off. she was smothered under mufflers, hat and gloves.
.. ouch ..
jobs im working my way through
manager i busted punching my timecard out at work called asking me to come pick up my uniforms and be on the floor at my regular time - i went to watertown instead.
this is politics? oops - i mean .. this is politics
the 'boro participated in a "meet your representative" get together on the square. bart gordan didn't show up. had his 'chief of staff', /chuckle, conduct the q and a. i came in on the tail end of it and, of course, the talk was centered around what is happening with iraq. mark and marty had gone due to interest. i went to meet mark for lunch. looking around i saw a couple of college students, a lady draped in mink, several veterans of the gulf and vietnam wars, a grey long hair (i swear he kept winking at me, really - it was sweet) who turned out to be one of the psycho therapists in town. him i'd like to meet seemed so corny.
was an interesting mix of people and opinions/attitudes.
none the less. i left my politics in calif. so - sorry. not to say i'm not concerned about what's happening. just that i consider myself a realist and honestly do not believe that my protesting matters a hoot anymore. although - if i had the means i had considered being right in there with the human shields heading to baghdad.
.. ouch ..
jobs im working my way through
manager i busted punching my timecard out at work called asking me to come pick up my uniforms and be on the floor at my regular time - i went to watertown instead.
this is politics? oops - i mean .. this is politics
the 'boro participated in a "meet your representative" get together on the square. bart gordan didn't show up. had his 'chief of staff', /chuckle, conduct the q and a. i came in on the tail end of it and, of course, the talk was centered around what is happening with iraq. mark and marty had gone due to interest. i went to meet mark for lunch. looking around i saw a couple of college students, a lady draped in mink, several veterans of the gulf and vietnam wars, a grey long hair (i swear he kept winking at me, really - it was sweet) who turned out to be one of the psycho therapists in town. him i'd like to meet seemed so corny.
was an interesting mix of people and opinions/attitudes.
none the less. i left my politics in calif. so - sorry. not to say i'm not concerned about what's happening. just that i consider myself a realist and honestly do not believe that my protesting matters a hoot anymore. although - if i had the means i had considered being right in there with the human shields heading to baghdad.
Sunday
jobs im working my way through
heard some of the kids talking about the manager clocking them out while they were still out working. i thought "naw - no way" and went on my way. i do remember that during my first week i'd finished my work and gone to ask the same manager for my timecard and he stated "time cards had to get in, it's been taken care of". i shrugged and went on my way thinking "well, he will write in the time i leave." last week i walked up behind him at the timeclock and saw him with a timecard in hand ready to plunge it in the machine. told him i was done and he handed me the same timeclock he had in his hand.
last day of the work week and i went and asked miss v in the office if this was kosher, the manager punching out your timeclock for you. she said she would ask the top dog. i might as well start looking for a new job now. the night time manager was kicked out of the special forces. my life at work is going to be hell. i can feel it now. maybe if i go sweet talk miss v i can get a transfer to another unit on campus.
last day of the work week and i went and asked miss v in the office if this was kosher, the manager punching out your timeclock for you. she said she would ask the top dog. i might as well start looking for a new job now. the night time manager was kicked out of the special forces. my life at work is going to be hell. i can feel it now. maybe if i go sweet talk miss v i can get a transfer to another unit on campus.
Saturday
music
bastard society - jd - sings, does the guitar thing, you know - stuff like that.
just listened to the cd brandon brought over last night.
he went to watch them at "the outer limit".
not to fond of heavy metal myself. but it's jd's band - so had to see what he was doing.
just listened to the cd brandon brought over last night.
he went to watch them at "the outer limit".
not to fond of heavy metal myself. but it's jd's band - so had to see what he was doing.
Thursday
eagleville weather
woke up to a thick, fluffy layer of snow on the ground. first 'good' snowfall i've seen since we moved here. everything is quiet and still. even better than the dead of night. kids said it started at 9am, so in three hours it laid down a solid blanket of white.
looked at the naked plum tree in the front yard. a half moon shone through the lacy branches that were dusted with ice crystals and, with the snow falling, the glitter of it was to intense to look at straight on. when you looked sideways you got the full effect of white/tinted light refracting off, reminding me of diamonds. it was to dark for my camera to catch because i keep putting off buying a battery - so we just looked. took pictures but i'm still enamored with my 35mm camera so there won't be any instant posts of the pics'. beauti-mus.
looked at the naked plum tree in the front yard. a half moon shone through the lacy branches that were dusted with ice crystals and, with the snow falling, the glitter of it was to intense to look at straight on. when you looked sideways you got the full effect of white/tinted light refracting off, reminding me of diamonds. it was to dark for my camera to catch because i keep putting off buying a battery - so we just looked. took pictures but i'm still enamored with my 35mm camera so there won't be any instant posts of the pics'. beauti-mus.
Wednesday
music
what is this resurgence of "da blues" lately? seems like alot of musicians are playing it right now.
i can't find a decent rock and roll place unless it's a bunch of college boys getting stupid and that is boring as hell.
all there is in middle tennessee (that i've found) is country and/or blues. yuck. i mean i like both but as a steady diet? naw.
leah says there's a goth club in memphis and we are going. now that's going to be fun. there is a 'small' goth counter culture here because of the diversity of the campus. but mostly it's the farm boys with the country music and the soul brothers? .. with the rap and hip-hop. which i don't mind - but again ..
not as a steady diet.
with the drummer 'j' heading to the northwest tomorrow, the music around here is going to slow down. i'm going to miss that terribly.
i can't find a decent rock and roll place unless it's a bunch of college boys getting stupid and that is boring as hell.
all there is in middle tennessee (that i've found) is country and/or blues. yuck. i mean i like both but as a steady diet? naw.
leah says there's a goth club in memphis and we are going. now that's going to be fun. there is a 'small' goth counter culture here because of the diversity of the campus. but mostly it's the farm boys with the country music and the soul brothers? .. with the rap and hip-hop. which i don't mind - but again ..
not as a steady diet.
with the drummer 'j' heading to the northwest tomorrow, the music around here is going to slow down. i'm going to miss that terribly.
Thursday
jobs i'm working my way through
still really digging this job. it's varied enough to keep me interested and i get to move around. so unlike the hospital were i sat at a computer all day. we are short of help right now because the students are still figuring out their schedules and some people didn't come back after semester break. i'm getting a good chunk of overtime and my feet feel it when i step out of the car after the half hour drive home.
car woes
my battery light was flickering off and on for a week. finally - last night it stayed on the entire time i drove the car. i figured i'd better get on it before i had to use the extra coats i have stored in the car. the auto parts store tested and replaced the battery for me and i bought an alternator to carry out. got enough kids hanging around, surely, one of them can replace it.
brandon and jon started on it and then monty and bobby took over with david showing up to input his knowledge.
ends up it got to dark to finish so it will get put back together tomorrow. just getting the old one out took a couple of hours as it is located behind the engine and crowded down in amongst this bunch of wires and "other" car parts.
sunday afternoon yeah.
they have gotten the alternator in and i drove to town without a battery light going on. these guys are pretty good at maintaining jenny's and my cars.
i still hate cars. hate them.
car woes
my battery light was flickering off and on for a week. finally - last night it stayed on the entire time i drove the car. i figured i'd better get on it before i had to use the extra coats i have stored in the car. the auto parts store tested and replaced the battery for me and i bought an alternator to carry out. got enough kids hanging around, surely, one of them can replace it.
brandon and jon started on it and then monty and bobby took over with david showing up to input his knowledge.
ends up it got to dark to finish so it will get put back together tomorrow. just getting the old one out took a couple of hours as it is located behind the engine and crowded down in amongst this bunch of wires and "other" car parts.
sunday afternoon yeah.
they have gotten the alternator in and i drove to town without a battery light going on. these guys are pretty good at maintaining jenny's and my cars.
i still hate cars. hate them.
Friday
eagleville weather
snow last night. huge fluffy flakes. snow is late this year. usually christmas day we see a light blanket of snow, but not this year. "lite" snow flurries today. hope this winter isn't an icy one versus a snowy, slushy one.
music
jordan and joey in hampton virginia for the phish concert. three day blow out. wish i could of gone but had to work. awaiting the play by play on the blast i'm positive they are having.
music
jordan and joey in hampton virginia for the phish concert. three day blow out. wish i could of gone but had to work. awaiting the play by play on the blast i'm positive they are having.
Thursday
well - holy cow
playing on a machine hooked up to cable and all i want to do is cry. what a way to start 2003. damn this rocks. i want one. added to the wish list once again.
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