i remember the nights when
we were under the sheets of sin
everybody looked down and frowned
when we stepped up and grinned
can't you hear what i feel when i
turn to look away from everything
you've built up to this very day.
at one point and time in my life
it was simply about you and i
found out the shit you hide inside
and im standing in the rain you say
im to blame but you sparked the flame in tha first place.
jon and micheal ©2000krak
all stuffed down inside of this crumbling shell
that i conceal myself within.
i feel this beneath my skin
tearing and breaking me.
why i even stay
there's not even one thing thats keeping my mind
sane from what you bring with your pain.
when i look within this glich overlapsing my mind
and i see what you were back then
and i know without a damn doubt
you took everything that meant something to me.
and i just began to regain my self-esteem
stripped by the one who i let get inside me
i let you inside of me.
jon and micheal ©2000krak
Saturday
Friday
Wednesday
computer woes
couldn't figure out why the h.p. was taking so damn long to process the last downloaded wu from seti at home. until i opened up the machine that is. the gunk was so thick i'm surprised the fan was even moving. /lazy. living out in cow country is harsh. the dust floats by and zap - it's caked the fan blades so bad it looks like alien cow dust doo-doo. hear the gateway making straining noises already. guess i should open it up and shoot some air around in there. maybe next week. one of these years i'm going to take both computers into the real computer guys shop, the ones that know what they are doing, going to ask them to give both computers a bang up clean. i hate taking computers apart and having to be careful. then im going to figure out which of the computer parts laying around actually work and piece together another computer. one that the kids can mess up all they want .. to their hearts desire. yup uh-huh ... been saying im going to get it done for a couple years now.
i remember my dad taking computer programming and the boxes on boxes of punched cards. so mysterious and for me - a puzzle - yeah. i wanted to know more about what made computers work. of course interest lagged after learning Dos. and trying to keep up with new languages? heh - forget it. my brain refused to function in that manner.
to bad i have to keep my computers locked up in my room though but that's in order to keep the others "quote >> kids << unquote" from getting them bugged up. every single kid has a "oh man dude, my puter took a dive and really .. i dun know why" story.
wish we could tie into the cable that was laid down along main street a few years ago. figured when champions run went in up the road we would be offered a hook-up to their cable. maybe in a few years. ether net would be cool. i whine because i can't have the zinging hookup.
tn is 5 years behind in everything going on around the usa. but that's part of the appeal - living in the slower pace.
roofing
jordan's room was a sieve this last rainy session. so jon and i re-did the portion of the roof over his room. fun fun. with what i've learned during the "we should of just burnt the damn trailer down instead of restoring it" business at the lake and other little projects we've done and i've watched over the years. well, must admit we did a good job for never having done it before. no leaking now and it will hold until i get the metal roof next year. i love my big - fat book on carpentry and building construction, 3rd., feirer. it's full of information on building a house from the ground up and helped us with the small details. i wouldn't want to make roofing a career. yuck, my hands ached for days from the fiberglass in the shingles. haven't decided on a color yet for the new metal roof .. leaning towards brown. also have some siding to replace. tommy came by to take a gander at the siding as i was just going to use wood from the barn falling down over in the next field .. he said it was a special order grey pine something or other. would take a week to get in and it wasn't cheap. /sigh figures.
i remember my dad taking computer programming and the boxes on boxes of punched cards. so mysterious and for me - a puzzle - yeah. i wanted to know more about what made computers work. of course interest lagged after learning Dos. and trying to keep up with new languages? heh - forget it. my brain refused to function in that manner.
to bad i have to keep my computers locked up in my room though but that's in order to keep the others "quote >> kids << unquote" from getting them bugged up. every single kid has a "oh man dude, my puter took a dive and really .. i dun know why" story.
wish we could tie into the cable that was laid down along main street a few years ago. figured when champions run went in up the road we would be offered a hook-up to their cable. maybe in a few years. ether net would be cool. i whine because i can't have the zinging hookup.
tn is 5 years behind in everything going on around the usa. but that's part of the appeal - living in the slower pace.
roofing
jordan's room was a sieve this last rainy session. so jon and i re-did the portion of the roof over his room. fun fun. with what i've learned during the "we should of just burnt the damn trailer down instead of restoring it" business at the lake and other little projects we've done and i've watched over the years. well, must admit we did a good job for never having done it before. no leaking now and it will hold until i get the metal roof next year. i love my big - fat book on carpentry and building construction, 3rd., feirer. it's full of information on building a house from the ground up and helped us with the small details. i wouldn't want to make roofing a career. yuck, my hands ached for days from the fiberglass in the shingles. haven't decided on a color yet for the new metal roof .. leaning towards brown. also have some siding to replace. tommy came by to take a gander at the siding as i was just going to use wood from the barn falling down over in the next field .. he said it was a special order grey pine something or other. would take a week to get in and it wasn't cheap. /sigh figures.
Sunday
weird guys
tenn guys are so hick and backwards sometimes.
came home from work one morning, ran in and changed into my scrubs - than ran some mail out to the box to get picked up. within a few minutes a customer from work drove up into my driveway. my gut reaction was to walk into the house and lock the door.
i was pleasant enough to him, even though i was shaking inside, and sat outside talking to him. he said he had been out dove hunting and saw me on his way home.
ya, right. true - dove hunting had opened the day before. so it was plausible but it didn't feel right.
he asked if i would go to dinner that nite with him. how dare he presume that he was welcome to just pull up into my driveway. acceptable to me would of been for him to maybe stop a sec, say hey ! than head on out.
yo ! ask for a date in a proper manner. i don't tell anyone at work were i live or anything other than general stuff about myself. so how the hell did he find my house? i live to far out in the country for it to of been by chance. i used j as an excuse and told him i had a bf but that he was in colo at the moment. maybe i should be frightened but im not. go figure.
came home from work one morning, ran in and changed into my scrubs - than ran some mail out to the box to get picked up. within a few minutes a customer from work drove up into my driveway. my gut reaction was to walk into the house and lock the door.
i was pleasant enough to him, even though i was shaking inside, and sat outside talking to him. he said he had been out dove hunting and saw me on his way home.
ya, right. true - dove hunting had opened the day before. so it was plausible but it didn't feel right.
he asked if i would go to dinner that nite with him. how dare he presume that he was welcome to just pull up into my driveway. acceptable to me would of been for him to maybe stop a sec, say hey ! than head on out.
yo ! ask for a date in a proper manner. i don't tell anyone at work were i live or anything other than general stuff about myself. so how the hell did he find my house? i live to far out in the country for it to of been by chance. i used j as an excuse and told him i had a bf but that he was in colo at the moment. maybe i should be frightened but im not. go figure.
Thursday
redirecting kate
weaver family and friends forum took a moment and got the forum somewhat straightened out. *note : this is where you can go kate and write to us without messing with e-mail or snail mail. easy to use for html challenged folks.
/Grin hope you enjoy.
/Grin hope you enjoy.
j
looked for you on campus after talking to M.
I was done at 9, thought you got done at 10?
Anyway, looked in 109 and didnt' see you.
See ya tonite. Thinking you'll log in and see this.?
I was done at 9, thought you got done at 10?
Anyway, looked in 109 and didnt' see you.
See ya tonite. Thinking you'll log in and see this.?
Friday
dang kids
i can only assume your out partying jord as you've not called
me to head into the 'boro yet.
now i'm headin off to read .. so get a ride home.
hi kate :) miss hawkins said she got you to the picture site and i will email you as soon as she gets your email account set up for you.
love to you from us and big hugs.
me to head into the 'boro yet.
now i'm headin off to read .. so get a ride home.
hi kate :) miss hawkins said she got you to the picture site and i will email you as soon as she gets your email account set up for you.
love to you from us and big hugs.
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