lost children

a dark heavy blanket is over us all. today is tyler's last party and tomorrow the funeral. hard to believe that tyler will never again come to the door. never again talk to us about his dreams and hopes. i can't go to the chapel. tyler's last words to me were "you know me, i think of you as a mom."

the kids all gathered here to head up to chapel hill. you can see on their faces that this has had a great impact on their thoughts. our grief is overwhelming. i hate death and the thoughts it brings. we will miss you so very much tyler.

lost children

tyler was taken off of life support yesterday morning and allowed to take his last breathe on his own. my life will not be the same without him in it. goodbye tyler, you were a brief flicker and our lives were enriched by your friendship. i knew this would come - we all did. it doesn't come any easier knowing this. the kids had a small memorial at the house. they came and went all day remembering tyler in the only way they could, by talking about all the joy they had shared together. goodbye child. may you find peace.

jake is in the icu being kept in a coma to allow his brain to heal. i can not imagine the suffering his family is experiencing at this time. he is in our thoughts and prayers willing him to at least come back to us as a functioning human being.

we sat and thought of all the kids in our little world that have died due to drunk driving over the last 6 years. 8. 8! 8 lives. 8 sons and daughters. to many to comprehend.

memories

wonder if mom and james remember this one? Ancon Theatre Guild

arm your pop-up stopper guys, you have been warned ^!^

jobs i'm working my way through

cooking at a fairly elegant billiards club in town. not a bad job. cept she starts me out with part time and already im heading into overtime. once again.
oh well. at least i don't have to deal with the drinkers.

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*lasted a whole week guys.
they had me doing dishes and man, i just don't really like doing dishes ...
ya know? yeah, sure ya do.

home sweet home

a month with k did me in. i'm going to cocoon for awhile than head back to work so i can spend my next vacation indulging myself a little more.

need to go into town and let my librarian know how much i appreciate her. the librarians in corsicana have to be some of the rudest ones i've ever met.

country living and the problem with waste

ever live with a septic tank? no? ok. this is what i've come to learn over the years. educate the ones raised in the city that you do not - do not! throw butts, tampons, paper, etc, etc, etc in the toliet. nuff said. simple. easy. got it???
you sure you got it!!?? i mean how hard can it be?