Ya think ?

Under stress the damage usually surfaces.

Common Sense

Never make someone a priority in your life who considers you an option.

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Hi Dad

Hi Dad,

Hope your feeling well or at least comfortable.
I have a card ready to mail to you guys, have had it ready for a few weeks, but have not gotten around to the post office yet to mail it.
I am sorry about that.

We are fine.

It's pretty darn cold here. If it would rain we would see snow. But nothing as of yet.

Take care and I will mail that card.
Your daughter

Jobs or lack there of?

Jeanne and I are trying this out. House cleaning. I so hope it goes well.
I ordered business cards from Vistaprint. It's kinda neat. You get 250 free ones for under 6 bucks. Back has their advert but heck who cares.

We have our first job on Wednesday! It's for once a month so far. But it's a beginning. I am nervous, of course, but I am always nervous with new things. Breathe !
I've put ads up in Craigslist and on Myspace. Still looking for other free advertising. Not much of a response yet, but I am hopeful.
Still putting job apps in to various things to float myself till it gets off it's feet.

It has hit me in the face that my age has some bearing on whether or not I am looked at for job positions. That hurt. It's not spoken out loud but it's obvious. Thank goodness I don't look my age or I wouldn't even be getting my foot in the door.

Lost minds

I lost my mind for a number of years and I wondered if I would ever see it again
I looked under the bed, I looked under the couch, I looked under the crepe myrtle I am in love with

I look in the mirror too

I looked in a bottle for a while but that didn't help me find it
so I threw that bottle away, but my mind still refused to be found

I looked in you but I couldn't take your mind and make it mine, as much as I wanted to

I look back and know when I had lost it, but for the life of me I couldn't tell where it went off to

so finally I left, thinking, well maybe ill find it over yonder

it still eluded me

I went back looking again, no luck there

so if you find it please let me know
I would be ever so grateful

Book title?

Number one son rattling off word junk the other night, this one caught my ears.

"How to live with STD's" by Sharin Dicks

Funny kid.

Hope your well

JBP - I want you to know.
I am not going to try to lay any guilt trip on you, although I seriously want to.
But that is not me.
I do want you to realize and know my heart is in turmoil for you. How can it not be.
This is not what I had envisioned for you. But that was my vision and not yours.

I know your a young man now and you make your own choices in your life.
I want you to know I will always!always love you no matter what you choose to do or how you choose to live your life.

There will never be any variance in that. Ever.

I can not admit that I am okay with a couple of the choices you have made and I wish I could of done something or could turn back a clock and make it different, but as you know I am a realist and will accept your decisions.

I can also understand the choices you have made. I am sorry that this is the way it is.
I am so full of misgivings about how "things" are now as versus "how it was" and I wish you could of "been when I was" instead of now.
Things wouldn't be going down this path if that were the case.
I am not sorry for birthing you. Never. You have brought me so much joy and light. I am in love with you and who you are. What more could any mother ask for?

I love you so deeply and I want you to be happy. That is all I want. I know my ideas of what constitutes happiness are different than yours. I will accept this.
I will not turn my back on you.
I will always be here for you no matter what.
I want you to know this. I know you will read this if you get a chance and since I am rarely hearing from you I thought this would be okay.
Your gems have not arrived btw. :(

Prarie Fire Rocks

Prarie Fire

My son's band getting ready to tour the south.

Catch them if they head your way.

You won't be disappointed.

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